Friendship bleeds

Yeah it's sunday haha. Well it's kinda unlike me to be so happy during a sunday when i know that i have to book in, somehow today seems special. Wake up real early to play my Tales haha, yup and i play and play and thats how it went. Work in camp is not going to be that tough for now, it's like passing through the eye of a storm, so calm and gentle. After that we will need to brace ourselves again for another blow of ICTs. The road has been rough, so much turmoil, so much time lost into infinite. Though life in camp is tough, i realise that i learn a lot of things inside. Still got another 5 more months to go before my official release date is up. I am gonna miss life in camp. Friends that i have make, my accomplishments done. Yes about 80% of the life inside is full of office backstabbing, dodging of arrows, wearing of masks and doing a lot of things so unwillingly. Yet the positive side of experience gain outweighs my misery more than ever. We do it all together with your friends, sharing the work and pain together. There will be people that i will miss in particular of course, but please dont forget about me. It sort of reminds me of school days, the moment in school that you make friends with so many people. Once you are no longer in school, those precious moments just fade into oblivion with time. When i look at my MSN contact list and my phone list, so many friends made along the way, lost in contact. Neither of us take the initiative to stay in contact with each other, some of those close friends that we make only manage to linger upon the edge trying their best to organise outings and only to be constantly rejected due to our differences in life. Yah i am guilty of my own act as well, the more friends that you have, the more they will dwindle away as you make more new friends to cover up the hole that your previous friends make for you. Friendship is like a parasitic monster, it's always there. As you make new friends, old ones just slowly fade until the point when you want to turn your head back to see how they look like, you cant remember any of them at all. I dont want to be a part of your dwindling life do you know that, though i know that you are on my msn list and phone list, both of us didnt manage to take the initiative at all. I still got some time in camp, i wont forget you for now but eventually the time will come where i will erase you completely. I will do my very best to keep this lingering relationship afloat, but i doubt that the result will be fruitful. So let me just say good bye to you for now before you or i forget about it. Well i am not pertaining this to any particular people, i just want to say sorry to my friends who i have make and didnt manage to continue to stay in contact. Once a friend, always a friend, nothing special and i will respect your answer to stay it this way.

Perhaps i didnt leave any deep impression of myself to them, that's why the feelings will dwindle. I want to be nice to you but you just didnt realise it. I am such a fool, haha.

???: I am sorry but the plan didnt work
Shinn: It's ok
???: This is all your fault Funny. Why didnt you stay away as you were told
Funny: he he, i just cant resist staying away, i miss them
???: You just have to pock your nose into everything dont you
Shinn: Enough guys, we have an issue on our hand. The plan will have to hold back
???: Agree, i guess it's time for them to be out
???: Ah yes, i suppose it's my turn isnt it
???: It has been years since you let me out, Shinn
Shinn: It's only temporary guys. You will need to go back once the issue is over
???: Ah, wat a pity but i guess it's ok
???: Hmph, as long as you want to do it everything is fine
Shinn: Good, please do a complete job in destroying it please
???: I shall do it with grace
???: He will pay for what he did, revenge is so sweet
Funny: For once i will really sit aside from this issue, it's not funny at all....

When the hunter becomes the hunted, even a somebody can be a nobody in an instant