Building a new nation

Haha yup i changed my blog song, this one is real...touchy. You might not understand a single word its talking about, you might feel weird tat i listen to songs like this. These are not just songs, okok i admit they are adapted from the game of Ar Tonelico haha but SO!! Songs are not just music and singing, its a form of expression for someone in all kind of ways. Hatred, love, passion, friendship etc. This song is call EXEC_RE=NATION, kinda a strange name rite haha. But yah songs or hymms which i like to call it, are wat the characters in tat game sing. This song sings for the sign of rebirth, the start of renation "duh read the title pp, RENATION?!". Not just renation as in build a new world, but the expression of freedom, liberty and resolve. The others hymms sing by the Reyvateils "oh tat word refers to the girls who sing in Ar Tonelico" are EXEC_HARMONIUS, EXEC_CHRONICLE and some more which i didnt manage to get but still melodious. Harmonious isnt the type for most ppl for it stands for chaos, rage, hatred. Btw Harmonius is my favourite. Chronicle stands for doubts, sadness, regrets. Of course all in the ha~~ and he~~~ hymmno tones that you hear often in church songs. K enough intro bout my blog song, time to get into the main theme: can you be happy or even happier?

Life is full of twist but on and all, everyone just wants to seek forth their goal and attain happiness. Happiness comes in many different forms: from the cliche "i love you", playing, being with someone you like, achieving goals, family. Than you have things like killing someone, revenge, death and etc gothic/mental extreme behaviours that makes a person feel happy *sick people but nonetheless still people, physically. So many, so many kinds of happiness expressed in different forms. Yet not everyone pursue it through the same way. The path to search for happiness is rough. You might reach blinds, corners, edges and cross roads, but eventually, really eventually, you will find the happiness that you are searching for......somehow, somewhere in some form. You cant forbid yourself from finding happiness, for they will find you even if you dont. Sounds ridiculous? So many downs and disappointment in life, fears of rejection, isolation. However, once you learn to accept the truth in life everthing makes sense. You learn from your mistakes, enemies can still be friends, the end of a relationship is a start of another kind of relationship. The person whom you like may not like you, the dreams tat you pursue just dont come true, yet along the way the process of liking someone and pursue....didnt you enjoy it? Happiness doesnt have to come all the way till the end, they happen along the way. True that you may not find everlasting happiness in the end, but if you cant learn to be contented and be fulfilled of your desires, you will never find happiness. Dont put true happiness and plain happiness together, embrace them as a whole in life and see the bigger picture. He "from a HER perspective, insert watever you deem appropriate" might not like you, you tell him the truth and face rejection. It hurts a lot.....But along the way didnt you have lots of fun knowing about him, trying to know him, get him to understand you haha. In the end you face a big flop in your life. You cry and cry, whine and whine. You can do anything you want to bring this world to an end. You are trapped in your little world in this big big world. Imagination VS Reality. Think of the sacrifice that many people have made to make this an even better world, happiness also come at the cost of sacrificing your own happiness for someone's happiness. Learn to let go, embrace the truth and face reality. Most is lost but not all is lost, move on and step into the light for you will see happiness awaiting you in this big big world, near or far.

You may not be someone i want you to be, but i am willing to be how you want me to be in cuz life....is full of compromising, isnt it =P Tears in my eyes but i bear them to see your happiness more then mine