Sticking to Realism

Sticking to Realism

Very bored again as usual, i dont reall have much of a mood to game lately. And as usual with nothing much to do i tend to ponder a lot on the unnecessary and make myself unhappy haha. Gonna work again tomorrow, at first i was really dejected knowing the fact tat i need to work on a saturday but...perhaps it is still best tat i go to work. It is not like if i have really a lot of plans on with me so why not churn up some hardcore cash for the better of myself haha.

Sometimes, when u pin a hope so high and wait for the best to happen, things just dont seem to go the way you want it to be. Call it one-sided or placing your hopes too high or expect the unexpected. Though hope doesnt have an entity for itself, it still hurts a lot when something you look forward to keep disappointing you. All i want is just.......accompany haha Yeah yeah i know have lots of friends around me, but i just yearn so much for another kind of company. Usually i dont show my attitude to the outside world, my 2 old-age bloody colleagues are almost 100% correct about me but i just dont say it out to prove them wrong. They are right so how can i prove them wrong? To think the people whom i doesnt associates with know so much about me and i dont care much of a damn bout it, am i being selfish or am i just playing attitude to catch the eye of other people's attention? Socialising socialising, all for the sake of gaining that "special" kind of feeling. Perhaps i should start accepting ppl for who they are and not what i want them to be. Still, it's hard for me to do that.....i will change someday, but just not yet...not yet.

And wings of light shines out from the back of the guy in white, embraced in thoughts...."hikari", rains of light filled the sky and the sights turn blur. "Brava isnt it" said the guy in green. "Pretty light, pretty light is deadly light" bounced the guy in pink. "Yuria shall pay for what she did to us" and all 3 of them vanished in the break of dawn.