A new start

By now i believe that everyone thinks that my blog is dead. Well sure it has been inactive for a very long time, but believe me its not dead. A good thing about it being "pseudo-dead" is that now i can finally write down not all but 90% of my real thoughts, really real thoughts. Have done away with a huge chunk of nonsenses that you can see in most blogs. The chat box, profile bout myself etc blah blah blah. Meaningless introductory.

A new life begins after my journey of hell from serving the "service". I now call myself "a calculative oceanographic geochemist". Individually they just mean the modules or "subjects" that i am taking now in NUS. Calculative = Math *yuck*, Oceanographic = Ocean chemistry *sounds nice but still yuck*, Geo = Geography *not yucky but neither is it good* and chemist = chemistry *my major, double yuck yuck!*. Everything is a yuck, too bad now its uni life cant complain much. It is definitely a bit turn compare to JC life. No more spoon speeding, lots of independent study and yah not to mention, matching up to fashion trend in the campus.

My mid-term exams are just over recently, around last week i tink. Just got back my math result and i must say tat i am really impress by it. Honestly i was expecting myself to get 82 *80 is almost a norm, dont need to wow*. Some careless mistakes tat i did wasnt all wrong after all. Uni marking style sure is flexible, thanks for the extra sympathy mark haha. I really dont like Math but ironically, Math is actually one of the subject which i can score really well. Chemistry on the other hand is my interest, but interest can never match with realistic result. Modern chemistry paper was a disaster haha but luckily its only worth a pathetic 5% out of 100% for this semester lol. My lab reports covers more than this pathetic test paper. Boo hoo i may be but be realistic, only 5% hello earth to everyone, standard deviation is like 0.5SD, no point mourning on the "will i get A+ or B or blah blah". Greedy greedy, dont let the A's overwhelm you. Inorganic is even worse, so many questions to do yet so little time and i bet almost everyone freaked out. Sadist lecturer, but i like his teaching style haha. This semester is truly tough i must say, not being able to score ideally well for it is understandable. Afterall, one catches up late and follows the pack. Doing badly for this semester does not guarantee tat i might not flood YOU with my A's while i laugh sadistically inside myself when i see you got stain with B's haha. Ha ha, hahahahaha *restraining myself*.

I am growing out of my flyff game, starting to get real tired of it. I have no intention to play other games at all. No time to do so with lab reports every week, tutorials to do and a mountain trail of lecture notes waiting to be read. Lazy lazy, i wish i can push myself to the limit and study. Nevermind that, with my dying interest to flyff it wont take much time for me to pick up my diligence and study again. Like i said, give me time and i will excel myself. I can do it and believe me i can do it better than anyone haha. Self-arrogance is coming haha but yah thats just me. I can have people believing in my potential but i trust myself more than anyone, ANYONE. Nothing can be right but i can make things right. I rule my own life, not you and certainly not anyone. Narcissisim perhaps, don't throw me with the "psychological disorder" treatment, you cant fool me when i already took a psychology module before. Yup i studied that alrite and i find that half the time i am reading craps. Opps, alter-ego is coming got to restrain again, restrain. Alter egos are so umm how to say, unpredictable haha.

Ah i see i must depart now. Hopefully my blogging frenzy will last me till i finish this semester at least haha. Still thinking bout what i should do tmr morning if i am not playing flyff. Study?? I will try but i will see how, maybe rot another day like what i am doing now. Flyff or study, hmmm...