The sunny side, flip flop smiley dude

The sunny side, flip flop smiley dude

Heyz, i am kinda clueless about wat to blog. I need a breather.

Went to watch High School Musical 3 with Zac on Wednesday. I was suppose to study but i hack it. The movie was really good i strongly recommend everyone to watch it if you are a big fan of High School Musical.

Even though i had a good time watching the movie, at the same time i feel guilty. Damn guilty. It's like what Shirlene said :"wow you still got time to watch movie ah." Yah, wow at myself too.

Sometimes i blame myself for stressing myself. Many times i dont. But i am in stress, very big stress. I have got 2 tests coming on monday. Final exams for my Understanding Universe and Bahasa Indonesia modules. Thinking bout them make me depress. Sad, i wonder if my preparation is good enough. I wonder how much of the preparation is really enough.

Some people fight without thinking through their head rationally. Others fight not with hands but with words. Battles that can be seen are scary and gruesome. Battles that cant be seen are worse. Some bleed on the outside, others bleed on the inside. It's better to see the blood because it only hurts on the outside. Tears hurt a lot on both the inside and the outside. Those are not tears of joy, those are tears of pain and agony.

Greed is a sin, a greed for fame

Lust is a sin, a lust for attention

Wrath is a sin, a wrath of jealousy

Sloth is a sin, a sloth for simplicity

Gluttony is a sin, a gluttony for achievements
Envy is a sin, an envy to be contented

Pride is a sin, a pride of ego

When dreams are still so far away

The nightmares never fails to stay

I dream of a dream every night

A living nightmare in reality at every sight

When silent thoughts are slowly broken

Prayers once said are all forgotten

I want my own dream

And not your old thing

I want my own theme

So bad that i'm gonna scream

Some things are not what it seems

Some words are not meant to be

I know you are not fine. I know you are stress. I know you can still smile in time of crisis. You smile only when everyone's looking. How i wish i can see how you really look like when you turn behind my head.

Boo hoo....i cant believe a few papers and numbers can make me break my smile. Un...believable.

Even though i am at one of the darkest moment in my life in NUS, i wont give up. I might emo once in a while feeling lost and confuse but i will definitely stay on the fight. It's like what i said earlier, do my best if not they will also do their best to beat me down. Apart from being competitive, i am also a very sore loser. That means that i always go for the big kill to win, so scorng A+ is despicable i know, but i want to be despicable =P

I dont like to fight a battle if i am not confident about it. But when some fights are really inevitable, i will make you regret picking a fight against me.

Defence, defence, i know it hurts a lot now

The opportunity will open, i know for sure

When the time finally comes

Offence, offence! I will give in everything i got!