Intelligence report

Intelligence report

The intelligence are out gathering datas as the news spread. Wearing mask of deceits and stealth, they do their best to get the latest data by all means. Most of them are friendly but there are some that resort to brute force. Some weep with joy while others weep with sorrow. The intelligence are out to gain the upper hand. Some news are of relieve while others bring more hatred. The curiosity cat is out on the loose. The situation is changing.

Results are out today. No surprises for my elective modules because they are already long anticipated. Core modules are kinda playing tricks on me though haha. Those that i thought i can score well didnt, those that i thought will pull me down didnt lol. Either way it's just a pair of mixture between what is wrong and what is right. Who cares if i A that module or B for the other. Overall i wouldnt frown at my result but i aint smiling either. My face is kinda plain like a sheet of icy wall. I can clearly see where i stand and there is no way for me to proceed any further than this. I need to tear this wall down if i want to proceed further. Currently i am at a lost. And yah GOD DAMN RIDDENCE TO FARKING ORGANIC CHEMISTRY WOO HOO!

Perhaps the long run of holding high expectation is finally pushing me to the limit. After years of pursuing a sky-high career i am finally at a point of saturation. The mesosphere is as far as i can go for now. It's dangerous there and i dont like it at all. Many times i wanted to give myself a break and fly back to the stratosphere where chaos run wild there but nonetheless i am able to catch a breathe. I ask myself why do i chase the sky so much? I couldnt give myself a satisfied answer. I guess i am just a human after all. Contented? What a laugther, haha. I dont want the sky itself, i want everything else above and below it. I've gotten most of what is below, those above are full of nasty and annoying obstacles. If i cant beat them there is just one way to get over it, a bypass. Things are gonna change a bit next year. I should have done that in the beginning zzz. Forget about Operation Merkaba, base on intelligence gathered, the current situation doesnt benefit me at all. You lose some and you gain some. My instinct was right after all but i didnt believe in it. What happen to "trust myself more than anything else"? I put that motto in the fridge months ago and it's time to thaw it.

I need a brand new haircut, gonna get Catherine to give me a new look before school reopens. Gonna buy a new bag for sure, hate my current one even though it's given to me FOC by someone. 1 more new shirt will do cuz i tink my wardrobe is bursting. It's time to say lesser to yes and more towards no next year. No, no, still no, dont make me say yes unless you want me to lie in your face or hurt your feelings.

Oh come on now dont give me that pitiful sad look or cheery smile on the face. We all know how everyone feels from the aftermath of the battle. We are all socially engineered to restrain our emotions and primal instincts. Just when will the society collapse, 2012? Lol

I am just being practical, lol