Celebrating a time of uncertainty Part I

Celebrating a time of uncertainty Part I

It makes me ill
to see you feel
I love for your attention,
i miss you
You cannot imagine how it makes me feels
see you, with her

It makes me chill
to see you thrill
I crave for your understanding,
i seek you
This truth is so cold that it's hardly real
all done, with him

It sure is frail
to see this fail
Utterly disgraced, nowhere to face
i need you
A crave so strong like popping pills
addicted, with them

Things are going a bit out of hand but still i manage to balance it. Going out again tomorrow, will post that soon if i have the photos by tomorrow to show it here. Study study, it's the same routine for me everyday. I am tired of this routine but i cannot stop doing it. I haven feel this amount of stress for a very long time. I dont want to do badly for my CA. I dont want to be at the disadvantage, at least i must be better than the person next to me. My personality has been shredded into pieces but i am still piecing up this rubble. I need to let my hair down completely and enjoy tomorrow so that i can prepare myself better for the upcoming battle. The calm before a big storm is a form lethal tranquility.

It's like crying alone in the dark. Because you keep closing your eyes and cry without opening it to perceive the help around you.