True face of a gentleman's farewell

True face of a gentleman's farewell

Finally the start of lab sessions and tutorials. NUS is bustling with life all of an instant: the urge to survive within the sea of stress. Not going to like lab at all cuz i will need to do 2 reports for each week, occasionally 1 but its still breathing down my neck hard. Inorganic is throwing a lot of problem sets at me and piling up. Physical has got mind-challenging questions to tackle even though its not a lot. Analytical is just drowning me with equations, assumptions and more assumptions. Chemical equilibrium is worse than i thought compared to A levels. With tuitions to teach and RT to train, i dont have enough time for myself to do school work and even much lesser time to do my own leisure things. And that means i will place the least priority to the people around me. I am much like the other side of the moon now: you get to see the shining half of it from Earth, the other part of the hemisphere is dark, unknown and eerie.

I dont have time for anything but only to commit myself to school work. It's being a while since i do things all by my own. Being alone seems new to me when it's suppose to be common all the while. Being practical is just another reason for me to find isolation. Even though i like to have more freedom and roam about in the sky, this shackled freedom seems to give me hope in a way for me to look forward into certain things. The lesser of one thing is excruciating.

I dont feel like coming online lately. Tired, busy and to be frank i just dont feel like coming even when i finish all my school work. Flyff is calling for me. I have finally store up enough money to buy my beloved Rody set after selling my Hknuck at a loss of 60million penya. Still, i am unable to find the time to play despite clearing up my errands, if possible lol. I am mentally exhausted. I wont much time to rest because the projects are coming up soon. Need to do research, meet-up and more follow-up with the gang in the future as lab reports, tutorials and tests continue to pile up at the back of my mind. I dont have time for anything. No that's not true, i can have time for things that i want if i want to. It's just an excuse. I know i know, i am lying again. Let me rephrase: "I dont have time for anything that i want to do and i always have to find time to do things that i dont want to do." Knowing less is good for you. The lesser you know, the lesser the pain. No, i dont feel the pain. You do! Haha

And i dont just haha or lol all the way like an idiot like i said before. I laugh at a lot of things. It can be hilarious or out of the blue. But i also laugh at things that people dont usually laugh at normally. No no let me repeat, i am not a sadist. Well close enough if it deems fit for you. It's 11.30pm again damn. Now my sleeping time is always at 11.30pm or before, no choice if i dont do tat i will feel like a wreck the next day haha. Exhausted.

With that i will bid goodbye to my post again. I will try not to post anything cept to update on my list about my schedule. I dont have the habit of recording them down on paper now that i can keep track of my work on my blog. Well to be frank again, those things are there for you guys to see when i will be busy and when not to disturb me at the wrong time like an idiot.

And i dont care how happy or sad my surroundings are. I dont see my attention needed at the moment anyway lol. I will lol if u really think that i am lol-ing. Do you have any idea how exhausted i am? Of course you cant and i dont expect anyone to. Everybody is tired i know. I am just saying it for the sake of saying cuz if i dont say i might just die, zzz. Just stop reading this post.

Some changes are inevitable

But not everything must change

Dont assume that one has change just because you think that they have

Dont even think that way when you thought that you know that person well enough

There is never enough in knowing a person in-depth

I have not change a bit from the start, but to me you certainly have ever since you start thinking of me that way

Busy isnt just busy, it just means STAY OUT OF MY LIFE AT THE MOMENT