Happy and lonely

Happy and lonely

I haven got a chance to properly update on my blog. Dont care liao i have enough of doing my lab report. Take a break and continue tomorrow, though i need to complete by 10pm cuz tmr got desperate housewife haha.

Nothing earth shattering happen to this week. Went out with Yanhong they all to sing at Kbox. It feels so good to sing again but they stopped the free-flow drinks for student package, bummer. Luckily i got bring my own water bottle. Kinda in love with Fang Da Tong's song thanks to Vixson, i am loving his song at the moment.

Workload is killing me, i mean its killing my social life BIG TIME! Prof Toh uploaded the take home assignment for Analytical chem and we need to come up with a stupid concept map. I dont even noe how to do a proper concept map in the first place much less doing it well. Zzz, why cant he just give a test. Inorganic chem report is killing me seriously. I am close to the verge of plucking my hairs out of my forehead for editing it again and again. Just what the hell is with the strongly coordinated ligands raising the dz orbitals up and down, up means up dont down for no reason. It is testing my fundamental basics to the limit argh, i hate fundamental basics cuz they are so boring lol. I am starting to lose interest in Inorganic chemistry even though the topics are much more interesting compare to physical and analytical. However, i can score better for the latters compare to inorganc cuz SO MANY PEOPLE can do well for inorganic. What's the use zzz. My brain cant be compare to the others lah, i noe where i stand.

Tired of pursuing perfection, even tired of pursuing close-to-perfection. I just want to be as imperfect as i can be. Smile a smile and walk a mile, throw that frown or lose a smile. How's it feel like when you are happy and lonely at the same time? Life is like a roller coaster for me, when the hype gets over you and cant catch your breathe, or the plunge goes so low that there's no turning back. Music and game is my life, my life belongs to everyone. Your happiness is known by everyone. not misery.

You're laughing most of the time but i caught a glimpse of a teardrop on your cheek the other day. Are you ok?