Verdict (to be continue..)

Verdict (to be continue..)

It's 12am and i should be long asleep already. But i feel that i should say something out before i go.

I just did the most radical thing today. It's gonna have a significant impact on me this year. All i can do now is to wait and pray for the outcome. It's gonna backfire a lot if i couldnt achieve what i am aiming for. It's only a yes or no verdict. If it's a yes, it depends on what kind of verdict is given to me and it can be a lot of happiness or sadness to many around me. It might be better if i dont receive a verdict, that way the people around me can feel slightly happier. Like i said before, making myself happy can cause misery to a lot of those around me. But i just want to be truly happy, and i cant be happy if you guys arent happy for me. I just ask you guys to smile for me just once, fake one if you must.

Promise you wont get mad
Promise you wont cry
Promise me that you will be fine
It's not like if i have been away for a long
I am always here
I may be elsewhere but my heart is always there
You got to understand, please try
It takes determination to make this step
It takes even more courage for me to choose this step
Smile~