Calling out in silence

Calling out in silence

First day of my holidays WOO HOO, and i just had a major knockout with my mum again. It's over trivial stuff but the magnitude of our bickering is nowhere close to trivial. Yah we patched back easily but lately, the frequency of me fighting with my parents is increasing. It's not like if i fight with them over my selfless issues or some stupid matters like me buying a $100 T-shirt or something, it's very much like fighting over something that has accumulated close to its brim and in need to be resolve. It may seems like if that the older i get, the more i am starting to neglect their needs when it is in fact the complete opposite. All i just want to say is that if you dont understand much about me, dont bother trying becuz chances are, i wont allow you to do so. I am a very selective person. So in general, stay away from me unless i allow you to approach. Of worlds apart, i can either let you roam around my place freely or bar you outside the border with electric fences.

Went out with CheeKeong they all to sing karaoke at Katong. It's a small cosy place with facilities WAY BETTER THAN KBOX and the price there is a lot cheaper. Only inconvenience is the location, cuz its at Katong. Sang quite a number of good songs and i am going to get a few more from my music supplier CheeKeong lol. I am in love with the SHE song Yue Guang Nu Shen, it's very melancholic haha. I love songs with a meaning of melancholy in it, sometimes senseless but catchy rap songs but overall i prefer to numb my senses with sadness. Will upload the photos on my blog once Zhenjian has upload them on facebook haha. Going to play Mahjong with them tomorrow before we go over to Clara's birthday party. Haven played a real match of mahjong with them for a long time ago, Viwawa mahjong doesnt count btw. I need to earn some extra cash for myself tomorrow, i need lady luck on my side haha.

Rushed back home to teach math after the karaoke session and i was late lol. They arrived punctually at my home and i can only blame myself for going back late during the peak period. I need to fight with the bunch of O.O.L (Old Office Lady in short) to catch the flight back home haha. Yong Cong and I were joking about them using the OOL lingo and insulting them lol. The OL inspiration came from the Channel 8 comedy show, Paris and Milan hosted by Patricia Mok. I love that show cuz it's very bitchy about typical Singaporean's behaviour. Ok back home i was expecting Kailin, Vixson, Zhenkang, Perdenver and surprised to see Jonas haha. No lah it's becuz my mahjong table can only host 4 people, and i didnt expect Jonas to come. I lend my trusty calculator, pencil and eraser to Perdenver. Those items have help me gotten good results during my exams hor, hope that some of the luck will rub over him on the exam haha. In any case i just helped them out with some concepts and doing some of their past year exam questions. I wish them all the best in their exams. Going to post some chemistry questions on facebook soon to help them out with their chemistry exam next week. I realise that doing quiz on facebook is becoming a popular trend haha, same for restaraunt city but i am not playing that at the moment. DOTA and GE is more fun to me haha.

Just came back from Jurong Point with Yan Hong they all. Seems like the math paper pawned them haha, all the best to them sia. Met Perdenver's mum working at Jurong Point. She gave me a herbal chicken and thank me for taking care of his son. Bought my ZA facial foam and my hydrating gel. I must really thank the PR2202 module cuz now i can understand the ingredients on many cosmetic products. So i know what is good for my skin and what i should avoid. I know it might sound like girly stuff, but i am a sucker for facial goodies lol. Finally, something that i learnt in school which is applicable in my daily life. Woo hoo!

We keep fighting and patching
only to realise that each wound takes longer than before to heal
and things can no longer stay the same without paying a price

You thought you know me when i allow you to do so
You thought you know me when i didnt say anything you dont
And i am only starting to realise that you dont know anything about me
when i need to tell you all those that you dont
Some things are better understood without saying
Words will only widen our gap

Silence can be a form of beauty and a form of guilt
My fault, i have been complimenting to your needs
Your fault, for taking too long to realise
Not worlds apart, i am just a lot more demanding than you thought i was
Way too demanding...

So you know me through hell of an ordeal
only to find that we lose more during the journey than what we gain in the end
I will always wait for you at the end of the journey
But not many can endure the ordeal, i have lost way too many
Mortified, i allow way too many to pass the ordeal with ease
only to realise that i am creating more permanent burdens than temporeal happiness
I'm used to it, or that's how i convince myself all the time
I am different from the rest, why couldnt anybody see through this

The difference between day and night lies within the degree of perception from light.

Similarly, the difference between what's heard and unheard lies within what is true and what is false