Foolish world

Foolish world

I thought that today is suppose to be a very pleasant day. I should be feeling a lot happier, haha.

So i went out with Yue Seng and Gary today to buy you-know-whose present, lol. Big-mouth Yue Seng spoiled the surprise lor, wasted. We walked around Jurong Point for almost the whole afternoon hunting for a proper present haha.

Before that, i was studying quietly at home doing the 3221 tutorial. Man i really hate retrosynthesis. I have to cut-cut-cut till tiny bits such that in the end, i used 1 whole page just to do 1 part of the question zzz. Then Sebestian and Jonas came to seek"sanctuary" at my house haha. Gonna finish up my 3221 tutorial tomorrow. Time really flies when i crack my head doing homework.

And it just swing high and low like a roller coaster that goes out of control. The portrait is suppose to be complete. All the pieces are back so why do i still feel that something is wrong? The position seems tilted. Things arent really suppose to be like this. I thought i was expecting something more....heart-warming.

So i finally figured out what went wrong. Nothing is wrong with the picture, but there is something wrong with the way at how i perceive it. I no longer miss that feeling. There is a brand new picture to my liking that appears subconsciously.

It doesnt matter if i can afford to bring this picture to life. It's not real but to me it feels so real. Illusion for now but i want to make it real so desperately. But i will not make the same mistake again. No more mistakes, no more bad falls. I can do the craziest things but my mind is always sound and saint.

No no i havent grown out of the old things yet. I am just moving on with life because....i no longer want to sit and wait like an unwanted toy. Even if everything comes up unsuccessful, i just want to give it my best in the most proper way without any regrets. Yah, no regrets living in your world. Wonder if there is still a slot for a fool like me, lol.