No way to say

No way to say

Sigh, it's kinda a boring and quiet night. Finished up my lab report and studies, played Country Story and Dragonica. I dont feel sleepy yet though.

Collen sms me today regarding the viva. Seems that a lot of people dont know that the Inorganic viva is due this week or next week. Chaotic, even i am worried for it all of a sudden. Will look through it in the lab tomorrow when i submit my report.

Had a craving to watch anime and eat potato chips just now. I haven watch my anime for a long time. Kinda rare to see that Perdenver went to sleep at such early hours. Sebestian's computer crashed and he cant play Dragonica with me. Well, at least i manage to up my relationship level with Bernard on Country story after we traded woods, lol.

A lonely quiet night today. Even though i said that i am busy with school work, i still have time to do my own stuff. It's just that whenever i am free, nobody around me is free. Ironic. Attention needed but not there when you need them, that's life.

Teachers' day is coming. How i wish i have gotten Miss Loy's contact when i met her in HKSS last year. I really miss my Math teacher a lot. Wherever you are now Miss Loy, Happy Teachers' Day. Oh and Miss Liau too, i lost her contact number though haha. Ah, the memories.

I miss this feeling again. I cannot feel a sense of secure around me, or with anyone. Even though there are always people around you, i still have the feeling that someday i will it all. I dont feel safe, not with the life that i am carrying. Not the sense of worldy possession, i am just way too sensitive to my surroundings. It's stressful when you assume a lot of things in your life, especially when they are mainly negative assumptions. Well, maybe one might think that this is a good way for me to learn the way of cherishing things. I am doing that, perhaps it is not enough to just cherish without putting in effort.

Here when needed, gone like a wind

Mutual is freedom but you risk losing it

Obligation is a shackle but you will never fear losing

Forget this forgotten promise

Forgive this unprotected dream

So that one day, people will feel the same for you the way you are feeling for them now

How can you feel my loneliness when you have so many people around you. I am just someone whom you know and trying to leave a significant mark in your life. Doesnt everybody strive to do that?

Hold them tight, for they will disappear one day for sure. So tight.... that it doesnt matter to me if i suffocate them to death.