Painful freedom

Painful freedom

Let me blog a while before going to school haha. No more lab for me so my weekly schedule just turned from a 4 days week into a 3 days week lol. Nah it's only temporary, school is coming to an end anyway. It feels good to rest at home without lab, away from that hot and sweaty lab haha.

21 more days till examination starts. Everybody is feeling the strain from it. Even though there are times when i am free to go out, the pressure coming out from the examination is "restricting" my leisure moments. It's like, i cannot go out and enjoy the fun to the fullest without carrying a sense of guilt at my back. It's so boring to confine myself at home haha. Thank god for the internet lol.

Study lor, sleeping, gaming or watching tv will be daily routine till the end of my examination. I can still go out if i really want to. I am contradicting myself here haha. To put it more accurately, what's there for me to look forward to if i really go out? At the moment i dont seek fun or enjoyment, it needs to be meaningful enough for me to say "Hack care with my studies, i need to let my hair loose".

Like a bird trapped in a cage who yearns freedom

Given a choice to stay or fly, he hesitates

To fly forward to an unfamiliar world,

for what is it out there that would interest me?

To continue staying in this peaceful environment,

i am safe but i am i really happy?

Freedom can be a pain to those who are either too contented with life or too indecisive...

The longest distance in this world is nowhere but me standing in front of you, loving you yet you never notice.