In the middle of the night

I'm wide awake in the middle of this night. It's good to be able to see clearly again.

Seeing through your thoughts, your words, your actions. I feel like I am trying a bit too hard over things that violates my principle. I need to move on with my life.

Still, I look forward every night. I guess I should turn in early as I usually do. After all, I dont belong to the night. I dont belong to anybody.

Ouch. It hurts. This pain will last for a while, just a little while.

The outcome is clear to me. It's impossible.