Maybe if i dont think too much, my life would be a lot happier at the moment. I dont want to make it a habit cuz once i'm addicted to something, i will have bipolar personality.

Envy is a very heavy sin, I must learn to love myself more. I'm not your supervisor, I'm not your brother, I'm no where near that much of an importance in your life. Just do whatever you like, even if it means doing things to my dislike. Afterall, I cannot think like you and neither can you.

Holidays are boring without a job. It's best to find one and keep your mind preoccupied with it. With a bit of space to breathe, who knows what might emerge out of it. I just pity the short amount of time that i can spend on.... i'll be fine.