This ugly and filthy world

Hmmm it's sunday again, the time to book in is almost near. A review about my daily mediocal life: My Tales game is reaching to it's climatic stage. Gonna take on the Oracle Knights: Largo, Regret and Arietta simulatenously together. I will need some pretty good helpers to control my AI if not i might have a bitter if not lousy battle haha. House is empty again as my parents went to have a mahjong showdown again with the aunties. The moment of calm at home is....scary. Went over to make a new pair of glasses. I choose this half purple frame glasses with white at the side. Wanted to go for red or pink but i dont think it suits my face after trying them, blue is also too cliche so i want to try something new. Purple is just nice IMO. Gonna touch up soon, pack my bag, groom myself and ready to go back camp.

Life this week has been simple yet mellow. I have cause so much problems for myself. I just want to be alone lately, i dont want to be with a group or talk about anything pertaining to happy thoughts. I dont really have the urge to laugh out loud and even if i did, i am faking it. Close friends might be concern but i dont need them to think too much about me, i dont need too much attention cuz i dont deserve it. All i need is myself and more time.....too much free time will just make me think more about unhappy stuffs, not happy stuffs. Maybe the hectic workload in camp will curb my issue, for now... This isnt love, it's a strange quirky feeling when someone who you believe in hurt you whether intentional or unintentional, directly or indirectly.

Life is sure different without laughter, your laughter.....You are an IDIOT do you know that.....

Shinn: You are such a FOOL. You never notice ANYTHING. You are the source of my sadness AND happiness dont you realise that FOOL. I hate you.....so much. How can you leave when i need you most you IDIOT. Baka!
???: ...
Sorrow: Yes, let it all out
Funny: I dont like to see this
Shinn: I hate him....it's so confusing
???: How can you possibly be with the like of his kind
Shinn: I hate you, i hate myself, i hate this world
???: You're not the only one suffering in this world you know
Shinn: Would you shut up for a moment

A life of forever happiness is something far harder to achieve then been happy itself