Not in love but in craze

Haha it's been Day 3 of my Ouran High School fever. Still not sick of listening to their opening theme song and yah i am still repeating my song till now, wont be stopping any sooner also haha. It's been really tiring lately with the restriction, going out, playing of games so much so that i am experiencing lack of sleep, which is very unusual of me considering the fact that i dont see sleeping important haha. After the completion of my fashion collection i dont seem to have any more things that i want to buy now. Replayed my shattered galaxy *thus abandoning Tales lol* and it's quite fun, still love it and not sick of it. Still chirpy as ever even when i am alone at home now whereby both parents are mahjonging again and bro isnt at home, so yah i am happy......

WHO THE HELL AM I TRYING TO KID i am so damn freaking bored and sad now *boo hoo*. I am listening to Sakura Kiss because that is the only song that can keep my spirit up. It's a happy cheerful song haha that is how i am holding my spirit up. Wendine is rite, i AM really not happy but in fact putting a very strong face up all thanks to my Ouran fever. I want to go out, i want to be with friends, i dont want my parents to play mahjong and leave me alone at home, i want to play games with my bro. Life STINKS alone at home and i detest it a lot! No one wants to go out, no one is inviting whoever to go out, it stinks to be left alone while everyone is out there having all the fun. I dont like to go out in the past, but now i do. I do i do i do so where the hell is everyone when i want to go out but i keep rejecting! Shopping alone STINKS too, who in the right mind likes to shop alone! I am not happy, not happy not happy argh i am going crazy by the minute. Stupid restriction, i hate my restriction if not for the sake of money. I wanna walk, i wanna shop, i wanna talk! I hate home, going home stinks if it's not for the sake of rest. How the hell am i suppose to be happy when i face the 4 walls everytime i come home. I rather stay in camp with my campmates but they too want to go home, so no choice i just go home. I dont think i have actually found my "shopping khakis" yet, MSN khakis yes, mahjong khakis maybe but not shopping khakis. It's so hard to gather people out when they themselves have got their own khakis to follow. When you get older, the group that you hang out tends to diminish unexpectedly. I am not old but it's diminishing haha, too much time spend on my own world i guess. Loneliness stinks when you are addicted to been a group, but i guess most of the time i choose to be with loneliness not that i really have a choice to follow.... Yet does anyone know what's the real reason? I doubt they will ever noe *not like if i am gonna say it out if i were to be asked haha* Kiss kiss fall in love~~ Maybe you're my love~~

Wendine: And i was right after all
Shinn: As ever...
???: Why not take the first step
Shinn: And the result was....
Karzen: Disappointment
Sorrow: It's my turn to wake up i assume
Shinn: Maybe...
Jim: So what shall it be? Lady or Host?
Shinn: That....
Jim: I see
Dark: I think i better get ready, it's gonna be a bang next time

When i say no, why cant you take more time to persuade me to say yes if you are really sincere enough...