Eternal Grace

Haha i am back at home, well i was back YESTERDAY but i was lazy to blog haha. I am getting lazier and lazier by the minute which i am clearly NOT HAPPY with myself. My work performance has been dropping but slowly increasing, my social relation is in CHAOS especially in camp and my own life is still sailing haha. I took off on friday and monday, i feel like i was abandoning my friends. THEN when i think about the numerous days they ABANDONED me alone while i was slogging in camp doing duties, cleaning up conference room and mess i was TOTALLy determined to take off no matter how much they want me to stay. I am no longer a leecher and i hate leechers *especially in my flyff game haha*. To define leechers, they are the group of people who likes to stick on to you no matter what and depend on you for support. I was a leecher before but NOT ANYMORE. I feel so stupid thinking about the days i was leeching on people and what do i get: NOTHING. I was stupid, foolish, idiotic and a drama queen *king*. There are moments when i got to be selfish and care for myself. I care for others more then myself but if i dont get the respect that i deserve then SORRY no more kindness to you Mr Leecher. I admit that i am a selfish, ignorant, lying-like-to-act-blur spoilt brat, but if that is the only points that you see in me as a friend then SORRY GTG NOW i dont want to talk to you anymore haha. Light and Darkness are inseperable, and so are the positive and negative entities in humans. You can never be all good or all bad, you can have a stronger side of one or a balance. I am more of a balance haha, a Libra in equilibrium. I am not trying to brag that i am nice, it's a matter of how much you want to see someone is nice or not. It's the mentality that counts, not the action of someone or behaviour. I can be anything you want from a charming prince to a selfless lying bitch. You too can be my holy knight or evil brat. There are moments when i got to be selfless and i admit *well maybe not directly* but if you can understand what i mean then i am just glad to know you as a friend. Peace out ^^P

A dance of eternal grace,
couples of poker face,
joker or queen, king or ace,
time doesnt matter who win this race.
be ever amaze,
who is in craze,
he leads a life like a game of chase.

Diamond or hearts, its time for me to reveal my card...