Hand in hand, together we stand

Woke up real REAL early to play my Flyff cuz i promised to meet up with one of my Canadian friend but the stupid server was DOWN OMG wasted so much time waiting and my precious sleep haha. I have met this very nice canadian friend online yesterday and we promise to meet up at approximately 7hrs time. For me it was becuz of plain sleepiness as it was already 1am lol, for him it was 7am in the morning but becuz of his wisdom tooth operation he took the medication and felt drowzy and got to go rest haha. I stood up to my stand and i believe he did too, too bad the server was down so i am not sure when we can play together again haiz. Even though we are playing games online and i shouldnt believe in everything in the internet, i can somehow feel the sincerity playing with him. Sure he can be faking it but i believe in him. Besides playing online we talk on a lot of stuff, like how he pluck out his wisdom tooth and our lives currently. Cybergaming may be an issue, making friends is another. All in all the main issue is about trust. If he have the intention to hack into my account or etc "meanie behaviour" tat takes advantage of my kindness then i am really stupid. However i doubt he will do that, i believe in him =P. Hope to cya soon my online cyber friend~~

To begin with, i started of doing NOTHING at all sipping my coffee. After tat i watched one episode of my beloved Ouran anime haha, it was a good way to start my day laughing out loud. Went on to fix my blog problem and set up a brand new tagboard haha, no more password thingy issue and yah my blog is save! I have so much spare time tat i can even begin blogging now haha. I have another huge desire for another chinese song by S.H.E call "chu dian", it's very nice with a melodious tune. Thank god my bro has it lol, gonna leech from him again haha. My affection for chinese song has been increasing as i hang out more in camp with my campmates and them listening to chinese radio. English songs are nice but i dont get much time to get hold of them. I am beginning to appreciate chinese song more then my english counterpart, jap will remain my forte though haha. Going out again later for my UN status, then it's Flyff again and packing up to book in back to camp.

Being in camp and at home is a totally different experience, i spend time having fun with my campmates through office work and fatigues, which technically is NOT the way i want to have fun and get along with them. I want to go out with them too but that is when the friends from outside camp kicks in. Prioritising is a very harsh act in socialising relationship. Everyone prioritise, it's a fact. Being the prioritise is good, and also bad as you noe realise that your stand in someone's life is not as important as you deem how he or she is to you. I admit that i am still living in my own world where everything in life has a definition and equation to formulate. Isolating so long from the outside shell, i yearn for nothing more then someone who i can talk to more then ever. HOWEVER this is not gonna happen in reality as i use my mentality to challenge the odds in social relationship. Thus a change is neccessary and i am slowly making a change in step. Yet i am puzzled, if someone is that willing to accept you in any ways or another, why must you compromise towards that person and not him towards you? The ideal logic is to compromise each other. I am already taking the step to compromise your behaviour, but i dont think you doing your fair share as i thought you would. Yah i am stupid now haha, i tend to act stupid when become too addicted towards something. I am already giving up things slowly as time goes by, i wonder how much will still linger when i am completely dead with you haha. Dont worry i am not falling in love, i am just going through an ordeal that defines my meaning of socialising. I got to solve the main root of all of my problems that i am what i am now, it's about time to take a bold step i believe. Ah, life is cruel~~