Autumn of Cross Guard

Heyz, well it's a weekday and ummm....i dont really know what i should write. It's the 2nd day of my Leave now, i am not sure how camp is like. I hope Joseph can handle the work in my office, i believe he can do it. Tohly is on course, with Prawny and Andy are in camp too. I.....sort of miss not being in camp. Office work is hectic as work comes in the form of arrow storms!! But i miss the gang in camp, i miss camp: hmmm that didnt come out rite from me haha. Okok as for Flyff i have been playing it for so long now, finally i have reach the final job change and i love it. Yah, i think i do.....my character can float and the skills are cool. Yah~~

Preparation for my Australia trip well, is kind of stagnant haha. I am just waiting to pack everything inside. This is my last week now, not my last blog entry for the month yet haha. I am both looking forward to this trip *even though it's gonna be disasterous* and hopeful. For once my bro will b jumping with joy as i stay scout free from my computer *i am so gonna do major formating to my com when i come back haha*, i dont noe how the others are feeling though. Well it doesnt matter, it's a brand new experience for me so go go go~ I dont really feel....lively lately. Playing Flyff for the whole day at home, it's boring. To be honest, my only real entertainment is when Joseph called me from the office and shoot me with arrows and work haha. And when the others call me and inform me about the updates in camp. Am i a workaholic, lol. I dont really want to hang up their phone cuz when they doesnt tat, boredom feels my sky. I never went out cuz all my friends are studying and working, i didnt take the initative to ask also haha. Less than 3 months before i leave the Army, i am not happy at all. There are times when i really really do hate the work live in the Army, but there are also moments that i enjoy so much, so much so tat i have never experience before. Sadly i wont choose to sign out *yet* or extend my service. Well i dont want to leave yet i dont want to extend. Duh! Arent i contradicting myself haha. Ah maybe it's boredom, too bored now haha tats why i am just mumbling some stuffs.

To lead a life where you would be accepted. Yet it's not so easy to be accepted: some needs changes to fit in while others are just born natural. No one is perfect but we want to choose someone who is perfect just to make up for your imperfection. Life is never perfect: If perfection is reach everything will go stagnant. Imperfection gives us the time to search within ourself and correct the mistake. Yet after correction some still find fault. To correct and recorrect, life is so ever trap in loops of imperfection. I too ask for perfection in life, you may not be the most perfect person but to me, finding the imperfection in you makes me wanna cherish you even more. For you are the doll that i start from building from scratch, and the only one who knows you better is no one but me.

She sits under the tree,
leaves are falling, in yellows and reds
to cover the greys on the cross
happiness never last

No one is ever perfect, only closer to the edge of less imperfection.