A laughter without a smile...is excrutiating

What a day.... I am still totally beat even though i didnt go out much today. Woke up late and still need to go over to IMM and buy a thumbdrive haha, it was nice to walk around in IMM *alone...lor* and yah, its freaking cold considering the fact that i just recovered from flu haha. Got to rush back home asap after going to IMM to prepare for my Mahjong-showdown session haha. We had not 1 but TWO MAHJONG SESSION in a row. Usually it will be better if u sit down on a spot and play throughout for a long time, but NO it was 2 seperate different session and doing prepartion for them is tough. Here are the results of how it went.

ROUND 1: Me VS Nic VS Cas VS Kai

It went out slow haha cuz Cas is a beginner at it, but she caught up fast. The round was slow as Cas keeps complaining hot when i dont really think is haha, Nic was so enthu and panicky while Kai just slashes the money out of us. I was kinda balance at Round 1, not much of a stir up movement, maintaining my winning and losing streak. Nic was kinda down at Round 1 cuz she lost haha, Cas was already mentally prepared to be butchered by us haha. In the end the biggest winner wat Kai, i was second. Losers were the ladies: Nic and Cas haha *sorry gals*.

After that was a 1 hr rush break where i prepare for the next round, went downstair to buy my food , toiletbreak and MSN a bit. Lol within seconds round 2 was on its way already, and Nic wasnt about to bow down to defeat...

ROUND 2: Me VS Nic VS Kai VS Joyce

Round 2 was fast. I was on a roll haha slashing everyone into bits with quick assaults and surprise gaming. They were pretty pissed lol and i wasnt gonna stop there. Joyce then suddenly came with her deathblow which sweeps of major chips from everyone in a sec and i was like OMG THIS IS NOT TRUE...lor. Along the mid-way, Nic was catching up fast from her losses with lots of small witty attacks and numerous win. Once, the table stopped turning cuz we were all stuck at her position for dont noe how long *hate it...haha* Kai was umm....losing lol. Everyone has got their own ups and downs, Nic was also pretty pissed at me for "seeing through her tiles" lol. Expected wat Nic haha, i noe your moves. Obvious lor =P Thank god i stopped her maniac deathblow, i dont want tat to happen again! In the end the biggest winner was Nic follow by me. Losers were Kai and Joyce haha. There were obviously more blood spill in Round 2 cuz it's night, i dont noe why lol i was already getting tired at night. Night isnt my best time to play mahjong haha, so you noe when to win me now haha.

After that long, tiring mahjong session i just MSN all the way haha. You know, the saddest moment that i encounter when i am not in any dilemma or pitiful thoughts, is when i am taking a picture but cant give out my brightest smile. I dont care about how ppl think about how i look, cuz only i will noe when i am at my best. And when i noe that i am not in my best, i feel sad haha. Not being please with yourself, that is the biggest blow that you can deal to a narcissist and being laugh at by your other personlities.

That guy with the biggest ego, has also got the least self confident....