Chapter 3 of D-Day: My name is RayeRei

Behold my dearest warship, the Merkaba Hanzelrusha. My name Captain RayeRei.

Merkaba, the state of my body, mind and soul. I am a living warship who walks in this society. I fight through battles in real life. Ironincally, i cant be repaired that easily like some cold heartless machinary.

I drink coffee because it calms my mind (and keeps my headache away lol). I call to the bridge where i work and command. The bridge updates and reminds me about the daily routine and upcoming events that i have to do. I am a systematic and organise person. As a captain, i must not only organise my task promptly but also manage my anger, my emotions, and my feelings.

Therefore, i leave them to the task of my counterparts. They manage the heart, the counsel and the throne. The councel is the place where important decisions are make to convince the beliefs that i hold in my life. The heart is the most fragile part of my life, tumbled with emotional, social and psychological problems that may plague my life. The throne holds the utmost command in the heart. He dictates the good and the bad of me. It has been 12 years since the throne remain as it is. The throne sits firm, only for now

Operation D-Day. That is the last mission for the Merkaba this semester. D-Day is known as Dooms Day. Dooms Day for Merkaba, a test of her strength, conviction and future. To put it in exact reality term, it means the start of my final examination which is due in 3 weeks time ARGH!!!. Preparation for my studies are ongoing as planned. A bit of burdens here and there, tutorials to do and lab report to finish. But soon it will be all over, i can finally deserve the break that i yearn for. Yes, my sweet sweet 3 months break all the way till i start a new life as a senior Year 2 student in my beloved school, NUS.

I love my school, i love my friends even more, and i love what i have even most outside of school. Things can never go a day without a burden and still life goes on. I dont have a nice head start like some people. Everyone has their own set of bad start from the beginning. From kindergarden to PSLE, at the neighbourhood school i finally bloom and even more brighter when i was in JC. I am proud of my achievements. The way i am saying things now is like if i am going to depart away from life soon LOL NO I AM NOT GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE HAHA. NEXT!!

Kaoz, school is finally coming to an end but the work remains piling up. Still got one more online assignment to do and god! I swear that stupid life science lecturer is trying to kill us. The assignment is like so difficult. I worry for my results for the upcoming final examination. I will do my best not to fail to myself. For the ultimate freedom from poverty, for honour or glory i must flourish lol. Couldnt sleep well lately, i swear the moment i close my eyes all i can think of are chemical equations. Just finished my history test today. It was a killer, 3 essays to write in 1 hour. And its not those kind of short short 2-4 lines essay k. I am talking about 1 length page essay, tertiary level style! Crapz no time to complete all my questions, well of course i attempt all but its like bits only. I cant score full mark but hey, answering all questions beat getting full marks for one and zero for the other 2 rite lol.

Sob, some things might have come to an end. But the end is marks the beginning of a new start. Somewhere, someday, you guys will meet up again in a totally different form. The road is still long, trust me it really is freaking long lol. So long that it can triple the people you know on your MSN friend's list compare to your current one lol. Dont let the passion die, keep your heart alive haha. Like me lol. Over optimistic may have its own flaws but hey, it beats going the day wearing a mask saying "I am emoing, dont pester me".

Cheers to all~