Once again i write from my heart

And i meet you at the MRT platform today. I saw you sitting down there with your head down. You look so tired, again.

Life sure is getting tough for you and me, but more for you. The project, homeworks, assignments, tests, essays, reports, presentation, curriculum activities and so many etc, just breathing down your neck so hard. Each time i get to see you, things just somehow have gotten worse. SMSes and MSN wont indicate anything about your tiredness or stress, you look really beat up. Not to mention about peer pressure and social life, things dont always go the way you want it to be. And you tried your best to meet up with me, people envy me for being such a devoted partner to always meet up with you. They should be more envious of you if they could understand how hard you try your best to meet me up everytime. Compare to you, mine is trivial.

We boarded the MRT and gossip a little. There were just way too many people around. You look so tired, i wish i can lend you my shoulder for you to rest on without the eyes from everyone watching. You still look so worried and bothered even when you are going back home. Waiting for any incoming calls to ring from your phone. The way i see you so stressed up from your work, i feel so helpless that i cant do anything much to help you. And you give me a smile. Dont do that i know that you are already very tired from smiling the whole day, it just make me feel so bad. Maybe we can exchange our lives one day and i might be able to understand how you are feeling. Its just all talk about how stress we are or how busy we are, just how is the degree of "how stress are you?"

Finally we reached your station. We walked out and took the usual route as usual. Almost to your home and as there were a lot of weird people on the street again haha. We continue to chat a bit more along the way home. You told me how important it is to have a good future and why you are doing this and that. Everybody wants a good future and be happy about it. I didnt say that the path to a good future will be happy too. And compare to you i seem to be aloof in my life. I always believe that there can be a way to work things out for the future. Heaven knows but it doesnt shows, lol.

We always look so happy in our pictures. With our friends we smile a lot and laugh a lot, all those happy moments captured within the second of the time. And they say that we are always so funny and cheerful haha. How ironic when you are at one time enjoying being with your friends and at another time detest by the other groups. Its like a moment laughter than another moment war, its hysterical haha. I always make my group my friends laugh a lot, especially about the Shu Qi issue and the Karma thingy haha. Somehow i dont seem to be able to make you laugh as much as i do to my friends, maybe cuz you are tired. With friends we show our other side of ourselves no matter how tired we are. Alone we just give up laughing because we are just so tired. But not for me, i wont give up because being with you makes me really happy, truly happy. I wont get tired with you around, unless i cant keep up. My happiness with you around is genuine and sincere, if not why do i choose to be with you. Then when i reach home i get tired haha cuz too much walking lol. But its all worth it, i know its just worth it =)

Before we reach your house i gave you the model. Its just a little boy model to you haha but do you know who he is? Out of the 5 i choose to give that to you. It was my favourite character in the anime and yah he was also the main leading character of the anime. He was a brilliant chess prodigy. With help from a deceased spirit from the past as a mentor, he soar up high and went to the world chess tournament, fought with many opponents and emerge as the champion. He too fought hard along the way, and cute isnt he haha. I gave him to you. Firstly is to have something for you to miss me when i am not around by your side. That little boy will be like me, always around to give you encouragement and also as a good role model for you to follow. I will always be around to encourage you to do your best, always be by your side to lend you my shoulder, always here for you to serve to your needs. I dont need you to payback to me, its all about mutual understanding. Its my duty to serve you haha.

And that is when i see you smile. I just love the way when smile at me like that, not those kind of LOL or other kind of laughter that is captured in the photos. Just that kind of smile, yup just that. And i get to see you smile like that again today when i give you that little boy model, i feel so contented and happy. Everything i have done till now is all worth it, everything...everything.

Well you know me best, i am just the affectionate type. When i want to say out certain things i just say it down from the heart, no hidden barriers. This is not an office or school, no hidden arrows or hidden implications. Hmmm do i need you to react in some way or another after reading this? Lol of course not haha, its my blog i am just writing down my feelings lol. Just read and understand can liao lor haha. FYI-ish if you wanna call it lol

For those who have no idea wat i am talking about. Who who who huh? lol i dont noe lol *acting blur*

Take care my dearest, god bless you.