The chase of life

The chase of life

It has begin. I thought that i have a wonderful life and yes i am having one now. But the unforgettable past remain trap in my mind. Lately my posts have been on the positive mood, but that doesnt mean that i am truly happy. I am always worried about our relationship and we confronted yesterday. My nightmare has finally begin.

We love each other thats an undeniable fact. However something seems to be missing. I cant explain that well either but we wont give up. We will continue to search for an answer and nothing is gonna stop us.

Life has been rather simple lately. Meeting up with dear and walking back home. So stress free, so casual, such a relaxing feeling it is so out of the world. So much free time to think about it and not a moment taken to tackle our issues. We are like the perfect couple with no bickerings, no quarrels, no issues. It is too perfect, way too perfect. So perfect that it scares us.

I have been thinking the whole night yesterday. I was pondering on the issues we talked about thats why i slept so early. Until today the rain has finally stop. Like the sky, my mind is now crystal clear. I have the solutions to our problems now my dear and i want to say that to you in person. Not by sms, not by msn, not by phone call but in person. I believe this is the perfect solution to our perfect relationship.

How did we first met? Haha i can still remember tat day. As the days progress, that precious moment of how we first met gets diluted. I recall what i say to you on that day and it seems that i have forgotten our ultimate motto. Yes, my negligant has cause us to suffer lately. You also have a role to play in our mistake haha, i must have pamper you too much haha. We are both at fault. I choose to tolerate and you choose not to pay attention to it. Our relationship isnt about complementary each other and we have been doing the wrong way for too long haha. Time to go back to square one now. I have been chasing the wrong thing in my life all along. I thought that by having you in my life it would have been perfect. Yes i have you now and something is still missing. Now i know what is missing and i will amend my ways to get back that feeling. Yes i know the answer, i hope you get what i mean.

Now i can truly answer your question. Why i love you and why i miss you so much. Yes now i really know, i really really know and i hope i am not too late to tell you this.