Welcome to the Ballroom

Welcome to the Ballroom

Finally finished watching Gundam Seed Destiny. I cant believe i watch tat anime its like robots spamming lasers and missiles at each other for nothing. The whole show is talking about war and peace and ideals and blah blah. It is so lame and cliche. I guess i just watch it for the sake of completion, i watched halfway through once so i decided to complete it, for the sake of completing it.

Hope to meet up with Dear tomorrow since we couldnt meet up today. Did house cleaning with my mum today as she has been nagging at me for 3 continuous days asking me to clear out my old junk. Old junk = old books and notes from my secondary and JC days haha. I cant believe i have a whole load of them in my cupboard. I throw away most of them cept for my Chem and Bio notes, they can be pretty important too even when i am in uni now. Who knows when i will use them again. Finished watching the movie call "Harold and Kumar, Escape from Guantamado Bay" or watever i forgot the spelling haha. Wasnt really as funny as i thought like Queenie said, different taste lah girl haha. Mother still haven send us the photos we took at SMU and SAM, bet she must be really busy with her work also haha.

It is always better to see things in a positive way. Yes the negative things do occur around us and we cant ignore them, but tat doesnt mean tat we got to preoccupy ourselves around them everyday. There are always a lot more unhappiness then happiness around us. So why must we always put ourselves in unhappy thoughts and not enjoy the tiny bits of happiness around us? I dont like this world, thats why i have Merkaba around. So many problems to deal with, so little solutions for it, so little options to talk about. If only everybody in this world can be trusted, if only. I dont always do things to suit my way, i prefer to adjust to my surroundings even at the stake of losing my identity and being fake sometimes. I dont like to be fake, who likes to be a faker. I am not happy when i am not at myself but for the sake of something else i got to make sacrifices. So many sacrifices, friendship, loyalty, wealth, dignity, integrity and many more. Am i happy? I am not happy at all. I miss the jovial and simple life of the past when i was in primary school. Friends are truly friends. Things change when you grow up. Things get different when you step into secondary school onwards. Why is it so? It seems tat simplicity and innocence are not tolerable in the grown-up society. Everything goes for completion and to do so, sacrifices are needed. Yes you can sacrifice anything but yourself. The losers call the winners hypocrites, the winners call the losers whinners. You can have so many reasons to argue your way out but it is damn bloody obvious in the light on what is right and what is wrong. That is why adults are so different from children. They have grown out of the light and step into the darkness. Some manage to preserve a bit of light in them but most of them dont. It's so ironic, i hate this world so much ooo..... i wish tat a nuclear bomb can just destroy everything away. However, the past is all nothing but memories now. It is in the midst of chaos when you find simple happiness from the simple things tat you have done in the past. I may have already give up hope on living in this cruel world a long time ago if not for my friends and parents, and of course you my dear =)

Since everybody likes to play the masquarade game, then let the dance continue. But i dont intend to lose, because nobody likes losing. Dance with grace and elegance while tripping down your opponent's feet. But it gets tiring once in a while and besides, i dont dance around with everyone all the time. If you make me then yes i shall dance for your sake since you are dying to ask for a dance with me. And i will make you regret for doing so =P