Friends forever in the subconscious world

Friends forever in the subconscious world

Something seems to be wrong all of a sudden. In just a split moment of time my mood went from joy to depression.

Gonna complete watching The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi by tomorrow, my next anime will be Shaman King haha. Chatted with dear today, did lots of meaningless stuff again to kill my time. The weather is freaking hot again, Queenie was complaining to me about the hot weather and how her shopping trip went. Went over with Mum to IMM today and the place was packed with people, mainly kids and families. People were everywhere, navigating the Giant supermarket with the trolley would be a big mistake so i choose the carrier for mum instead. A battle was going on in the shopping mall in fact, people VS people. Some people without logical sense just like to block the path like if they own tat piece of land as they stand around idling and obstructing the pathway. Make way or get lost please. Spent quite a bomb today haha and i couldnt help eyeing around the shops at the new clothes on display, almost got lost from mum due to my negligence haha. Cant help it, its a bad habit of mine whenever i go shopping around.

I am trying very hard to find this game call Langrisser. It is a very old game from Sega and it is my most favourite game. Was influence by WeiMing when i went to his house like years ago. Even till now i can remember the sequent of events and the characters, i am obsess with tat game haha i even replay it like dont noe how many times haha. A must try for all SLG players.

And to think everything that happens in our daily life are just a part of what we see in our conscious world. Subconsciously, things arent the same as they are. I thought i have forgotten about it, i thought i have got over it, i thought tat i am fine now. Yah i am lying haha, i haven. I still remember you, you, you, you and so many of these yous. I still remember why i did those crazy things and get people to be piss off by me. Was i really conscious when i was doing those things? Dreams are so pleasant, i love it. They felt so real, so much that i want to be in that dream forever. So sweet, things are always wat i want them to be. I dont noe how we become friends in the dream but we can never be friends in reality. You were so kind towards me and we acted like if nothing ever happen at all. Woo hoo all the fun and joy that we had together haha, i always look forward to having the same dream again and we did swear tat we will meet each other again in the same dream. Ironically, dreams keep changing every night. It can take as long as years before i get to see you in my dreams again. No matter how hard i try to dream about you or the things we did together it just doesnt seem to happen. In fact i can get insomnia if i were to think too much about it.

I am applying to MOE for a license. A license to become a relief teacher and teach in schools. I want to try teaching for once aside tuition. I want to teach in neighbourhood schools and maybe prestigious school like ACS or HCI. I wish i can do tat in the future, maybe in July haha.

I am really disappointed and i hate myself. Why must things turn out this way after what have happen. Why the hell did i do all this in the first place was i really that bored that i did the most unbelievable. I noe i can go hysteria once in a while but not to the level of doing the impossible. Can we ever ever be friends at all haha.

And so i dream about the impossible in my dreams, when the impossible is possible. Satisfaction of the conscious through the subconscious. Yah i noe, we are only friends forever in the subconscious world. Hope to see you popping in my dreams again the next time ok.