The melancholy of life

The melancholy of life

Yup finally finish watching The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi. Ah how i wish i can have the power to make wishes come true like Haruhi and change the world. Oh well time for my Shaman King, hope tat can help me kill some of my time haha. Change my blogsong AGAIN into the opening theme song of Suzumiya Haruhi. It may seems like a pretty joyous theme song but if u were to look into the details of the lyrics, there is a pinch of melancholy to it. And thus the melancholy of life, this world can be satisfying yet so boring sometimes.

Just went out with my 2 secondary classmates today, Weiliang and Alvin. I haven seen them in ages and they haven really change much haha, cept for the building up of muscle mass due to army training haha. Alvin and I are on our search for a new job and requires WL help haha. We chat a lot at McDonalds and talk about our life haha, get a long session for old times sake haha. I still remember the time like it was yesterday. I know them since sec 2, WL and Alvin are in 2C while i was in 2B. We were only next door classmates and it is easy for us to chat haha. And yah everyone have grown out of it and leading seperate lives. But there is one thing for sure, we miss the good old secondary school times together.

When you are young, people just look forward to being an adult, throwing away our ugly school uniform, stupid mundane school rules, restrictions to our haircut, cant do this or that or etc that will bring shame to the school names. Those were the irritating school days and we looks forward to grow up and earn our freedom. Yah i have achieve those already and got my freedom but i am not happy. As you grow up, we just miss the time being together simply as classmates. Yah i get to do whatever i want now, no school rules to follow, no uniforms to wear, i can have long hair now and wear many accessories and pierce my ear, manicure, tuck out my uniform etc etc. But i have also lost the moment of happiness that we have when we make fun of those stupid school rules and discipline. I miss the time when we gather after school talking, chatting, eating together, loitering in shopping centres just simply enjoying without the burden of schoolwork. Yes that is also the terrible period when you get tease alot by your schoolmates, relationship problems developing, school work and exam stress etc. But they mean nothing when you grow up, in fact these problems persist and worsen when you reach higher level as you grow up. You can never escape from them at all. I have loss the happiness of secondary school live but the anguish from those life persist even till now. And looking back now i feel so stupid to think that i want to grow up quickly. I hate being an adult! Now i cannot have a moment when i can stop thinking about how badly i will do for my results, how i will lose my scholarship, how i will not secure a job in the future, how to earn money for my own living. How to lead a proper and meaningful life as an adult and stop leeching from my aging parents. Fact to note, parents do get older when time pass, not just you, and they will only get weaker so dont expect them to sloth their life working to support you. Reverse role when you start hitting 18 haha.

Stress, please dont complain about stress to an adult when you have no freaking idea about what stress REALLY MEANS. It is true tat even kids nowadays are experiencing stress never like before, and they will only be even worse when they grow up. But if they cant even manage that level of stress, i tink the whole generation is gonna plunge into severe depression by the time they reach 20 haha. Oh please stress!! Stress my foot lah so stop procrastinating and move on with life. Live your life or leave it. Their level of stress is just a puny fraction of the stress level that adults are experience. It makes me really want to LOL and LMAO.

The melancholy of life, i am just a part of the 8 billion people living in this world procrastinating. Any lesser wouldnt change the fact of my existence in life.