Balance the Libra

Balance the Libra

I came home today after a hectic day from work. Mum gave me a very warm and pleasent smile when she saw me reaching home, she must have miss me a lot. I feel bad that i didnt spend enough time with her lately. Oh mum....

Mayhem at work, the beginning of OT (overtime) sessions as shipment pours in heavily and everybody works like mad. Mistakes make are therefore inevitable. But i still get heavy scolding from my boss, so many things to rush and there are bound to be mistakes between. I made a grave mistake today, the worst i have done i tink. He was so fuming mad and there was nothing i could say to make up for my mistake, thank god i am not fired lol. Everybody got screwed by their individual bosses today haha, but mine is the worse i tink haha. I am not sad bout being scolded, i am disappointed with my performance and the trust tat my boss have for me. I dont hate my boss, well maybe a little but i hate myself even more for failing even in the most simple task. This may be a temporary job but it just shows how much i fail at in the real working world. So much education, so wat? If you cant apply them well in the real working world, it is all useless. Gonna work again tomorrow, hate working on a saturday.

I wont be going to the IT fair with my colleagues on sunday, most prob with CK they all. Will be visiting ZJ at the Singtel booth, do entertain us haha but dont ask us to buy, broke no money liao lol.

William just send me an email about horoscopes. The predictions are rather accurate but not completely. For me, my zodiac is Libra and well i am a man lol. It says tat a Libra man is the most unbalance among the zodiac with multiple personalities. Libra man are usually good looking, even the ugly ones are charming (i dont belong to the ugly ones lol). Like a beam-balance, Libra can be stable or unstable with their balance. When balance they are fun and people enjoy being with them. When unbalance they can be pretty mean. Yup thats just like me, like or dislike, never a bit more or a bit little. Libra can compromise with other people easily, thus balancing out himself easily. That makes Libra very fragile, constantly in search of balance. During a breakdown, a Libra could adjust himself back easily but easily disturb again when the same thing happens to it. The only part that i disagree is about the love life of Libra. It says tat Libra are never satisfied with one love partner and always seeking for new ones to try and balance himself. That sounds so wrong, I am not like that. I am devoted =) I give a 70% accuracy for this horoscope prediction.

Yah i agree, i am constantly seeking balance in my life. My balance....it is not easy to stabilise them. I cant stand being alone, thats why i always talk to myself or do funny acts to catch people's attention. I like to make my friends laugh, it balances my mood when everyone is happy and not gloomy. If one is gloomy, all will be gloomy haha. I have 2 sides to the balance: the positive side and the negative side of me. I have multiple personalities, i switch roles easily from people to people but generally i am just being cheery. But having multiple personalities doesnt mean that i am a faker, a hypocrite or a back-stabber. I always keep a look out for myself, to be myself, to balance myself. I am selfish sometimes, because i dont want to do things that will hurt myself. Libra is selfish, it must balance itself or else it will topple. Libra cant behave like the other zodiacs, if either side fails to balance properly, this constellation will fall into bits very easily. Therefore emotionally I must be strong, very strong. If not i wouldnt have walk down this bumpy road for 21 years. Wait for me to start working mum, i will give you a good life i promise that. When can i give myself a good life, hmmm.....

Closing my eyes from things, that is how i choose to simplify things from the complicated ones. It's summer time now, i wonder whats the weather like in China......ah wild thoughts again, got to go sleep now. Oyasumi-des