Fly! Far away from the darkness and into the light

Fly! Far away from the darkness and into the light

I hate thursday, now i cant play my flyff again cuz of the stupid patching. I am bored, ate my potato chips halfway and i dump them away. I dont have the urge to eat them, i am bored and i just eat them to kill time while watching Happy Lesson. I hate eating potato chips when i am not in the mood and i am forcing myself to eat it. It doesnt taste as good as the usual time i am eating them. Haiz. Killing time now while bloggin, not sure wat i am gonna write though.

Lets talk about work. Work STINKS today cuz of stupid WeiSiang, my belove helper whom i hate to love and force to work with. For goodness sake he is like way older then me and he acts even worst then me. He sulks, complains, procrastinates and sloth more then me gosh and he doesnt look kiddy at all. Imagine a guy in height 1.75m with muscular build acting like a 16 yr old kid, puke blood! Ok tats not the main thing, he keeps getting me in trouble everytime like today also, i got scolded by my boss for NOTHING. I was teaching Weisiang and another colleague how to print sales order from the SAP system and Weisiang itchy hand got to click click here and there again. And great he causes another problem for me and i got scolded by my boss again. First time he accidentally clicked on to the approve button which boss HAVEN APPROVE and i got scolded by boss for "not watching him properly". This time i got scolded again becuz clumsy goof Weisiang accidentally click on the PRINT button for sales order. Yah printing some stupid papers werent create such a big fuss IF it doesnt trigger a chain of disruption down the administration! Not just boss even my big supervisor boss have to come in to interfere and rectify this stupid yet seems to sound so simple "print" issue. I keep getting scolded for nothing becuz of Weisiang's clumsy mistakes. Sorry my foot lah, i didnt ask u to click tat button and you just click on it without my approval also. I was suppose to be teaching him and i get keep getting scolded instead, am i really a lousy tutor? It is so unfair! Anyway even though there is a lot of work to do i still feel bored, partly becuz Weisiang keep taking my job away and i got nothing to do. Secondly i feel helpless. I cant help out with the physical intense work and i just sit there and watch them do, boss dont allow me also cuz he is afraid tat i might injured myself lol. Haiz, so i just sleep on the desk lor. I dont noe i just dont really feel like mingling with the gang today, they keep talking about soccer issues which i have no interest in. I feel left out, i dont behave like the typical garang guy who plays sports and enjoy roughing out with one another using vulgarities etc. I am just not like them, and tat makes me feel left out sometimes. Yah they like to make fun of me in a comical manner, but i dont want to be a clown to them i want to be part of their conversation too haiz. Well at least Weiwen still bother to disturb me when i am bored haha, still..... Ate Pig internal organ soup AGAIN! Weiwen fought with me for the same bowl cuz the uncle accidentally dip his finger on the other bowl haha, and Weiwen doesnt want to drink tat lol. So i got to drink tat lol, no way man haha xP

Yeah i finally receive my relief teaching license. Now i just need to call around the different schools and wait for them to employ me haha. I will call a lot of schools to make sure tat i have a higher chance of being employed haha. NUS has also approve my financial assistance application, i will be getting the 1.2K MOE Bursary award. Well tats enough to pay for my school fee thank god. Finished watching Shaman King now watching a new anime to kill time, call Happy Lesson.

And i still feel so empty lately. Do i know why? Dont know leh, i tink i noe maybe i dont. Maybe becuz i cant play flyff, maybe cuz i dont have any anime to watch, maybe cuz Dear isnt around lately, maybe cuz i got to sleep early every night and i dont have time to talk to Dear, maybe cuz i feel tat i have been neglecting my parents, maybe cuz i have been insensitive to some people's feelings, maybe....just maybe.

I just dont get it, or do i choose not to get it. Why must i always be the one trying so hard to understand some things and not people doing things the other way round to understand me. I am very tired sometimes, not from work but from my social life. I can only get to be Jun Hua the funny guy thats all, can i be something else instead. Oh my wat am i talking about haiz i dont noe just crapping ignore them. Yah just ignore them cuz i said to ignore them, haiz. People dont cherish what they have which are close to them all the time. They will only begin to cherish them when things are on the verge of disappearing or when they are gone. Haiz the irony, i wonder how many people will truly remember me when i am gone from this world haha. Who will be standing by my side if i were to lay in coma for months and when i finally wake up, who will i see around me? My parents? My dear? My friends? Anyone?

Lets bet on fate again Mr Blue Guy in Specs listening to the White Ear Piece everytime. Lets see if i can get to see you again on Bus 176 tomorrow. I am just talking nonsense again haha. I tink i will feel a bit down again tomorrow haha, cheer me up again Weiwen, or anyone.