Sakura Eden

Sakura Eden

Sianz. I was planning on cutting my hair today since i ended work early but the salon was close. So sad, guess i will cut my hair another time. My fringe is starting to annoy me zzz

I am really thankful for all my friends and colleagues in my work place. I have cause so much trouble for them and i feel terribly guilty about it. Yah they are all my fault, all my fault i am so sorry guys. Everybody takes good care of me really. They like to tease about me and make fun of the way i talk or act or behave but deep down, everybody is very concern about my work. When i was just recovering from food poisoning they allow me to rest even when i make mistakes. They dont allow me to carry heavy goods and ask me to stay aside doing nothing even when i am absolutely free. I may be a burden around but i take pride in my work even as a temp staff. The mistakes that i make are not intention and everyone just did their best to cover-up for me. I really cant say how grateful i am working in DHL even though i keep getting scolded by my boss everyday haha. He likes to make fun of me too lol. Maybe i didnt try hard enough, i thought i have but it isnt enough. I love everyone there: Azrin, Hasnah, Austin, Mr Choo, Sara, Shiva, Johnson, the 4 heavenly Kings haha and my fellow colleagues. 5 more days till the end of our contract, lets do this together. Sob i will miss eating lunch with everyone next time, stay in contact guys =)

Back to reality. Time for me to job hunt as a relief teacher. I will need to start calling the schools soon if i want to act fast, i hope they will employ me despite my puny kiddish look haha. I was passing by my secondary school, Hong Kah Sec, and i saw the "quality" of the students lol. Wow, can i handle them lol they might just eat me up haha. Blah dont care lah i am just to relief let them do wat they want. I haven try it before so i cant give up so soon. For the sake of $65 a day i will endure. Money money money!

Went shopping last week and i bought myself a cardigan. Wanted to get this collar shirt from Zara but Caslin keep saying tat i look good in cardigan. She was like complimenting me all the way even when i was eating my curry chicken noodle at Food Republic lol. I have spent like almost half of my tuition allowance and i just didnt realise tat haha, not to mention the MC that i pay for myself when i had food poisoning, plus the lunch, transport, bills and etc. I am going broke soon if my paycheck doesnt come quickly haha. I thought i look like an Ah Beng when i bought the cardigan at Far East Plaza, really ah i didnt realise i look good in cardigan. Are you sure i look good in cardigan Caslin lol, zzz i just dont have enough confident in myself when i try out new things. Haiz i wish i can have more courage.

My life is just like a writing a book, like writing a blog. I am the author and the stories are the journey of my life. Occasional ink spillage somewhere when i lose control of myself, thus some parts of my stories are cloudy. I tear out some of the pages once in a while, trying to delete away those memories that i want to forget. I stop writing when things get out of control, i begin to lose myself in life and emo away as i stare into space. I write my stories in the open. Some people would crowd around me looking at what i am writing. Those are the occasional by passers in life whom you would have met but not have a long lasting impression. Some drop by and say hi to me and i hi back at them. A deeper impression and i will include them as supporting characters in my stories to spice up the pages. What's with a storybook without supporting characters haha. There are times when i can no longer get myself to write anymore. Tired of writing, really giving up hope on life so i just get someone to anyhow scribble on my storybook and let them write what they want me to be. Some people are just dying or really curious about writing in my book so i let them write also. They want me to be a clown, prince, mediator, puppet, teacher, or many other etc roles to play. It is nice to read about what people write how they want me to be once in a while, its tired being the leading character everyday haha.

Yawnz. Time to stop writing my storybook now and go to sleep. Another tiring day at work tomorrow. Jiayou for me bah zzzzz. I still cant patch up this hollow portion of my heart no matter what i do. Yah i noe, i am still not over it yet. The wound may have heal but the scar remains. Occasionally the pain persist for quite a while. I cant help it, leading life day by day lor.