Fighting the sugar rush

Fighting the sugar rush

And you cant just seem to control yourself.
You just want to tell him the truth.
Even if the truth is a form of fantasy,
a fantasy from the manifestation of your own dream.
A dream which you desire for.
like the favourite ice cream you use to eat.
It tastes so sweet,
and then came the sugar rush.
You wish that you can control that feeling, just like a sugar rush.

Went of for my morning jog again as usual. Played maple for a while with Bernard and his friends before going out to teach my tuition. My student just like to dump a lot of homework at me asking me to "help" him out. I guess i must have spoiled him a little haha, thank god Keryn isnt like Kenneth. Tomorrow is gonna be a long day, going out with fellow Watashi Guildmates for gathering. Gathering is fun but i just mourn for my pocket haha. Even though i am not doing much now, chatting online with my friends, listening to music, blogging and listening to the TV outside my room, today seems to be rather different. A different kind of feeling from before. Maybe, maybe i am starting to be a little bit more different. Maybe i just want people to accept me of who i am and not who i am not. I still lack the courage to do so, its not easy, it is just not tat easy like saying ABC. I wish i can be like them, i feel like i am always living in a different world from the others. Not emoing but just feeling different. Pondering, thinking ........