The wind, the leaves and the smell of autumn

The wind, the leaves and the smell of autumn

After living through countless seasons, i just seems to realise that i have wasted my time counting the falling autumn leaves with the wrong person.

Round 1A has began. Organic chemistry and Understanding the Universe seems pretty hot and i bet it will reach climax by tomorrow. Keeping my fingers cross now, awaiting the moment to launch the nukes anytime. Just give me the command please Mr President. I will be taking Organic Chemistry, 2 Spectroscopy, with Understanding the Universe and Bahasa Indonesia for university requirement. Now to come up with a new name for my MSN nick haha, time to remove that "Mr relief teacher at HKSS" nick lol.

I just throw out quite a number of my useless clothes from my wardrobe. Even after clearing i realise that i have A LOT of clothes in my closet. I did a calculation and i realise that i occupy 90% of the closet while my bro only occupies 10%. But i dont noe i just dont like to wear the same shirt for too many times, afraid that someone would recognise it. I just want to present a new look everytime, for some reason, for a specific goal.

And i just receive a message from one of my army friends, Jian He. His birthday is just 1 day after mine. Guess what he was asking me about?

It's kinda a pity to see how difficult it is for one person to share a common interest with someone. The lack of chemistry: despite putting in a lot of effort, one can just shove it away in a second and treat you like dirt without any hesitation. A one-sided mentality, there will only be one and only one casualty - yourself.

At some part of your time, there will be a point where one would make impulsive decision. That moment of reckless behaviour will be the cornerstone to level up one's maturity. Everybody makes mistakes, everybody. Yah, i believe that my everyday life is like a RPG (Role Playing Game). "Click click here, boo boo you the answered the wrong question. Deleveled"

And even though i try to do my best everyday to believe in myself, i cannot help not to let down my guard to the people around me. I like to lock myself behind the gate with a very thick chain over it, maximum security alert in every level of my life. I think i have been awarded "The Best Liar" award for the XXth time haha. I thank you all my beloved fans =P

Oh no, i suddenly have this feeling that i have been played like a puppet by someone. Someone whom i trust a lot and now i feel that this person is just pleasing me all this time. I feel betrayed. Well come to think again, i have been betrayed so many times that i lost track counting them lol. Hmm, easy come easy go. I dont hold the XXth time for that award for no reason you know lol.

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Like crossing shadows, it is like if we can merge as one entity under the sun. But the moment you walk away, our respective shadows just part off. It is like at one moment we chatted like best friends, in another moment you just walk away like a stranger in my life. Should i blame the Sun or should i blame my ignorance.