Deny the denial

Deny the denial

Going for my chalet tomorrow. My bag is kinda bulky. High chance tat i will be shagged to death on saturday at Prof Lai's lecture. This week is bad, really bad for me haha. Still got big walk on sunday orh, tired beyond words to describe.

Still have no freaking clue as to what i should write for the lab report for UV spectroscopy. Its like come on lah, we have learn UV learn so how do you expect us to do. Do they really expect us to read online and mass rip/copy paste from senior report or something? I am trying very hard to do this myself but i cant understand a shit of it.

The tests are coming again. Dr Adrian is having another one next week. followed by the final test for my Bahasa Indonesia and Understanding the Universe. I score 71 for my Bahasa midterm. People said that 70 is only the AVERAGE LOR. Die liao, preparing my SU in case this module drags me down. I hate using SU again sigh, wat a waste of time. But i have confident tat i will do better for the next test. I must i got to, for my pride is at stake!

Going to cut my hair again this saturday. Damn i hate this bushy hair. I dont want Mandy to cut my hair again le lah she dont cut well lor. Grrr. A tiring week but it will be fun, my fun period of having fun before i focus intensively for my exams. A storm is brewing and the wind is blowing really big this time.

I should see you more as a friend than who i want to see you as i want to be. A first step, all it takes is a smile from me. I will do it without a doubt or hypocracy. Because i really want to know you better as a person and not as someone else. I know that trying is hard but i have to, eventually. I dont want to just procrastinate my life away. I dont want to be like a loser as how you see me in your eye. I want you to see the better side of me, the me whom i really want to show. I wont act out to show u how just a person i am. I just want to be the natural me so that you will accept who i am as a person too. Lots of regrets at the moment but i just hope tat everything isnt too late.

I might have screw up again this time but i swear tat i wont do it again the next time. Give me another chance, please.

This feeling i cannot deny. This is me, and i will let you acknowledge my present.