Soldiers of the sky

Soldiers of the sky

Only one word to describe: Sulit

Sulit means difficult in Indonesian term. My org chem test was really sulit, really really difficult haha everybody was RAPED! Ok not raped but more like masscared haha. I thought i was able to do Q1 with ease then i realise tat i did wrongly for the final step. I lose about 7 or 8 marks there. Q2 was ok but i tink i might have some careless, roughly 5 marks gone i assume. Q3 was the KILLER! Everybody tat i ask around DONT KNOW HOW TO DO LOL. And Q3 is worth a freaking 35 marks! I also dont noe how to do and there just wasnt enough time to think cuz the time given was too short. I did it hastily but i couldnt get the final product. I just scribbled on my answer sheet. Overall i tink i can only salvage like 5 sympathy marks haha, so yah 30 marks go bye bye liao. Q4 was the easiest, give away question bah but tats only 10 marks, cant salvage my loss earlier haha. It was a tough paper for everyone and the Prof said "you guys wont have time to finish so i expect you guys to finish at least 3 questions." Wow tats is so gonna encourage me to do well for the test huh professor, zzz. I was kinda disappointed with my performance today. I feel like emo-ing but i dont have the urge lol, no mood to emo haha and in fact i feel the complete opposite of emo. I am more like elated from failing this paper haha. La la la, get this damn test over with i dont care how much i score! I need to learn when to be contented and when to be ambitious.

Results arent everything, i know that but i also need to learn to accept that fact. Procrastination is just an option for me to run away from my mistakes...

Having lab again tomorrow so tat means i got NEW LAB REPORT to do haha. I hate lab reports, oh well who love them anyway lol. So good lor Yan Hong they all are having holidays soon. I wish my holidays can come earlier haha. I might be trying to look for internship or attachment during the holidays. Hmm haven confirm yet cuz i am lazy to find one haha. Why work when i can rest my ass on the couch during the holidays, lol

Somehow, i have got a lot of things to write but my mind is kinda block. I have a lot of obligations to keep up with and i dont want to disappoint myself and everyone around me. Cant find the time? Then make one yourself. Trying.....i need time to make time.

And i know that it is not easy to touch the sky

Because i know that i cant fly

Yet i dont care but the sky is so high

And so cried,

why bother try....