A little more trust

A little more trust

Even though nothing much happen today, i just wanna say that it feels good to lift up something over my chest. I feel much alive today. Who am i referring to? Nobody will know expect for me alone haha. Thanks

So it's the end of my relief teaching session. Didnt get a chance to bid farewell to the students in HKSS cuz i also didnt noe tat it's gonna be my last too lol. Things cropped up this week so i got to push away all relief assignments for this week. Hope to see them again next year.

Bidding for my GEK2501 was successful but at a hefty cost. Used up 50% of my bid points for it. Forensic science was even worse, 800 points argh. Why do the modules get more and more expensive as we get older, sigh. Good news and bad news. No lecture for CM3242 for the first week, but i still need to stay in school till 6pm cuz of my organic lecture. Super sian lor.

I think i am done with my shopping spree. And i learn a new word today: Pillowfile. Lol

So i am now playing my dragonica doing the lavalon quest while self-reflecting on my behaviour. I feel kinda ashame of myself. Ashame of my behaviour and how i think about certain things. I should really give myself a chance to put in a bit more trust to people around me instead of casting doubts. Sometimes, i just put too much faith in a person and expect too much in return. Extra faith in exchange for a better trust, I choose to regret than to embrace what I did. All i want for is a bit more mutual understanding. You understood me well enough, apparently I haven. I feel like a fool, haha.

I cant ignore it
something about a way you look at it

So desperately
my crave, neither your urge nor need
How can i expect more when i should have known better

So desperately
that it clouded my judgement to perceive your act
When you are you and I am not who I am

So i cant choose the way you say or act
and all i can do is to endure your crap
What i really ask for is not a bigger tolerance
neither do i want a dilution of your crap
Cuz i love the crap, and hate it somehow
All i ask for from myself, is just a little more faith in you
A little less of the petty in exchange for a greater mind of my own

No time to have second thoughts about me taking in too many tuition assignments. Somehow i wish that i can have a bit more time, really a bit more to spend quality time with my friends. My holidays are coming to an end. I am gonna miss those laughters, haha.