He's all up in my joy

He's all up in my joy

Why are you so obsess?

The line is starting to get blur. Who are you and who am I to you?

For reasons that i can come up with in a conversation, it sounds like if i want some compensation for something on behalf. I'm starting to go crazy haha. It has really been a while since i went psychopathic over something again. Triggered some memories of the past, I need to find something else to preoccupy myself with.

The higher the hope, the harder it falls. Why dont I ever think that hopes can always fly high? Why must I think that it's gonna fall someday? Dejected with life, I dont see any much meaning in life expect to move on and continue living even if it doesnt make complete sense to me at all.

I'm not upset with you or anything else. I'm a lot more sick than i thought. I always feel that if i try to forget about it, it's not gonna hurt me anymore. But you always haunt my thoughts whenever i'm not occupied with something. Like a wedge in my mind, it's really freaking hard to get you off the head.

It's all an illusion that's too real to believe. But hey, it's just for a day. One day of absence...without a chat....without a presence....without an attention.....I can live through it, painfully though.

Why are you so obsess with it? When did it started to happen? Where's my mind? Who lost it?

I want to know more, an everlasting lust for curiosity. Holding the breathe and always waiting. Every action, every move, simply elegant, simply sinful. Just a lethal dose of satisfaction is all it needs to continue with obsession.

I'm not obsess, i just think intensively