Optical illusion Part VIII

Optical illusion Part VIII

I'm feeling a bit of the sexy jazz mood today. Got influenced by the radio at work. Lady boss is on leave today so it's just me and Xianyang (my "new" boss"). Not many customers as usual today. We talked about the City Harvest Church issues and how Ho Yeow Sun is spending a lot of money on her music career from god knows where the money came from. I need to bring more comics to work next time because I have so much spare time to read it that I am finishing it way too fast. We also rearranged all the spectacles in the shop and clean them up, thats how free we were today haha. It's a pity that Xianyang will only work till Wednesday cuz he needs to study for his exam. I'll miss him as a colleague in the shop. I dont really have "colleagues" in the shop apart from my lady boss, the uncle boss and the maid. I also dont get to mingle around with Ashlee cuz she only comes when i'm not around and vice versa. The only people i can get to interact in the shop apart from those people would be the different customers coming in and out of the place. I'm quite use to the place already: the cashier at the NTUC shop, Aunty Florence from the hair salon, the aunty from the fish noodle store, the guy from the coffeeshop, and many more. I will miss that place a lot in the future, all the nice people there are so good.

As June is coming to an end, so is my working career. I will end my work by the end of June. I lied to my boss that I have to start on my Honours project so that I can have a valid reason to leave that place instead of saying "I am tired of working OT without extra pay and doing chores all day". Funny isnt it. Last month I was still complaining about having nothing to do at home and wanting to kill time. Now that I am working I am still complaining about having no time for my own things and tiring myself out. There's still one thing in common though:

I still miss her wherever I am, whatever I do.

What I need is not to kill time or to tired myself out, or to run away from issues and act ignorant to certain things. I know a lot of stuff and I am aware of my surroundings. I said something that I shouldnt have said to a friend last night and I was really worked up by it. He forgave me in the end but I couldnt help to think about it:

Why do I still say things that I know that I shouldnt say, but still say it out in the end?

I realise that even though I'm trying to make a joke out of certain issues, I'm actually forcing someone to confront it and expect a reply from it. It felt like if I was gonna lose something important again. I already lost one, I cannot afford to lose anything important again. That's right, I dont want to lose my friends too. She's gone, my annoying brother is going to BMT soon and I wont get to see him for a while. Dad is always busy at work and doing his own stuff. I realise that I am depending a lot on my friends to keep me company lately. I feel bitter that I couldnt do anything much to spend time with my annoying brother or my dad. I dont know how to start. I'm trying though.

I dont want to lose my friends, or my family again.

I'm on off tomorrow so that I can attend the buffet dinner gathering with my friends. BEAST is coming to IMM this week, woo hoo. Heard from the radio that 2AM and 2PM are coming next month too. Finishing up my blog to catch up with my Desperate Housewife series, playing a bit of my O2mania and talking to my friends online later. Yah, evoking memories indeed.

Replay the record from this faulty grammaphone.

This beautiful melody I once played fills the air with your lyrics.

Dance with me through the night, my queen.

You're like a sexy girl and I'm a bad boy.

Show me what you got beneath that look.

Groove to the beat and let's get hook.

Cuz the music aint ending till I say stop.

replay....replay....replay....

Pop goes the weasel, the grammaphone is dead.

And there you go like the wind.

My life came to an instant stop.

This CD feels cold like a half-licked ice pop.

I cant fix a grammaphone, so imma find another one to play the music again.

I wont pretend to be gentle. I'm not your idol, so please stop. Stop stop, you're not you're not...