A tribute to the unknown

Sunday again, that means it is time to go back to camp soon. Wake up real early today to pass something to a friend, quite tired now and sleepy haha. I have finally push my game forward by getting the item from Arietta, beating Regret and Largo was a piece of cake from this. Somehow i dont have the mood to continue, i dont really like to play games alone today. I have also develop a mood in listening to chinese song lately, just receive another nice song from a friend. The lyrics are touching though mushy, it may be applicable to love but some of the phrases can apply to friends as well. Also went over to PP and bought myself a new wallet, striking pink and black combination haha. Pink and Black are my favourite colours now. I am eyeing on a shirt at Giodarno but i am really broke now haha, wait till payday is here again. For now i will just admire haha.

I am quite content with my happiness now, also i am sad that this happiness cant last forever. It's really addiciting to indulge in the thought of happiness. Once it's over i yearn so much for it to happen again and only to disappoint myself if i dont get it. Everyone wants to be happy, dont they... No i am not sad, just confused. I am happy when i am with my friends, yet i dont go out a lot with them. If i dont go out i wont be with my friends, so arent i compromising myself now? Yes i am the root of all my problems and i will solve them, i just need some time to get it over with. Recall back to the young days where i met friends in primary school, secondary school and JC. Everytime it's a whole new bunch of friends when you finally get a hang of your oldmates only to realise that you cant go together as a group to the next place. Then it's another group of friends in another place and again facing the same problem. Making friends is almost like changing clothes everyday, you change into a new one when you go to a new place. Some old clothes will be thrown away, only the sentimental ones will remain with fonding memories. My comparison might sound distorting and confusing, and yes i am trying to confuse myself so that i can think more about other things. I am running away, far far away from my questions. There is also another main reason why i want to run away from, i want to run away from myself. Above all the thoughts that i have lies the main root of the problem: what do i really feel about what's around me. I like everyone, i like you as a colleague who helps me out with my work, i like you as a soulmate who listens to my problems, i like you as a friend who makes my day special, i can like someone in so many other ways. Liking someone is very sensitive word to use, but i am just doing something that i want to do. One must express his or her liking for someone so that they will know how you feel. Once they know how you feel only can you know how they feel about you. I really like to express my liking for all my friends but i cant and i wont do it. I wont say it out of course =P but i would like to... someday. I am real weak physically, emotionally i may shatter if you crash me with answers that i cant accept. I will rather you to lie and deceive me. Even though i know that you are deceiving me and i know that you are but you dont say it out, i am ok with it. I will only take answers when you say it out loud to me, and i will only accept the answers that i say out. I just like to be surrounded by beautiful deceptions, and that is my inner world that my imaginary friends are in.

I am a realistic person on the outside. I can break a friendship into two without hesitation. On the inside i lied a lot more to myself then i can ever say 'sorry' or 'thanks' to the people i know, breaking friendship hurts. It's hard to think but up till my age i still dont have a friend who can truly understand or wish to take a step to understand me better. It's nice to know you and my instinct tells me that you will make a good truthful friend even though we didn know each other for long. You may not notice it but it's ok, true friends can be found anywhere and anytime, understanding each other through hearts and not words. I will not run away from all my problems, it's good to share them out finally after all this years. It's also time for my counterparts to sleep also, till then again, au revoir.

Funny: Haha it's nice to being out, do call me out again =P
Lust: We wont appear much, but i will still protect you
Sorrow: Sad to say this but if you are in trouble again, please let me out
Dark: Yah let's see how long it takes for you to be in trouble again. Tomorrow?
Shinn: Thanks. As for now, please represent for the upcoming Council
Funny: Haha, Wendine will be happy to hear this

When it's time to sleep, go on all out for a happy dream