Lonely shopper

Another fruitful day for me as i began the start of my journey haha. Spend quite a while doing so before going out with Nic and gang. One of our playmate came by to visit us and have fun but because of my "schedule" to follow, it has somehow disrupted my social life. Suddenly all the things that i wanted to do like going out, hanging out with friends just seems to pause completely. The restriction that is on me isnt tight, the mentality that i am sticking with is. Somehow if someone were to ask me out now, i dont think i can go out anymore, well at least not in the afternoon or morning haha. My nocturnal life is gonna begin at any rate haha so better get use to it. Initially i dont have the drive, but as time goes by even those young in the heart will still get old, eventually. No more going out often, no more shopping with friends. All this time going out alone yesterday and today, i seems to be able to get along with "shopping" alone. Yah it's pretty bored sometimes but i have my MP3 with me, i can do some sightseeing along the way considered how long i have coop myself up in the shell for so long, i get to buy my favourite things and going anywhere i want, anytime i want. I dont need to wait here and there, drag here and there, no worries about going back on time etc. However somethings seems to be amiss, it seems a little too quiet around me, it's like if i dont have any friends all of a sudden when i shop alone.... I wanted to buy my stuff so much so i went to buy it alone, but in the end i didnt buy it. It's just doesnt feel rite.......

Shinn: i dont know how i should feel suddenly
Dark: what is it again, need any rage
Funny: yah, it's like being funny but no one is laughing
???: Desolation is coming
Shinn: i am not desolating
Karzen: wanna bet
???: a change of heart
???: perhaps so
Shinn: My heart didnt change, it just stays frozen in time waiting for the correct moment to thaw
???: what if it doesnt thaw, ever
Shinn: then so be it
???: and so when will the change of heart begin
Shinn: i can only hope that it never happens

Some feelings when expressed out, needs a listening ear to be heard