Nobody like liars, not even liars themselves...

Today...was suppose to be a nice day. But.....it you got to get it into this way......

I am....confused. Should i.....hate or forgive you??

You are my friend but you lied to me. I hate liars, i really hate them. I break off all contacts with liars, delete them from my list, out of my life forever. But you, i am surprised.....

I cant hate you haha you are my friend, but neither can i forgive you tat easily. Thousand words of "sorry" cant bring about my forgiveness, neither can my loofiness get pass this easily. For tat moment i hate you just SO MUCH in caps. Words are sweet and manipulative at the same time. Life is sweet ONLY when people are sincere. If not they are always...always sour....

I am a liar too haha. I dont know how to express "hate" in front of you *unless you are my brother haha* but you arent... I can only express "fake happiness" in front of you, if you are smart enough to notice then please....try not to get into my life for a while. I want to be alone...at least not with you around ..... I will forgive you, it's only a matter of time. So for now, please pardon my behaviour and let me hate you for a while....thanks. I dont hate ppl that often leh, let me hate you once in a while can. I am just that of a brat...let me be a brat... I really HATE YOU and i dont know what to do *god help....really*

Lets talk about happy thoughts, happy thoughts... Hmm i am very very happy with my new guild in Flyff game haha. Love everyone there, got my Ah ger, scraggy, Ice, Perpy, miss EZ, so many so many to list haha. Tmr i am going out with Nic and Cas....i am really faking so much now, so much faking. I am not happy today haha no matter how i want to stay happy. NO i am not falling out of love, NO i am not suffering from depression, NO i am not having family crisis. It's the same thing that i am always unhappy with: being content with my friends around...... I hate you so much....yet with so much passion for our friendship. You are so...PROBLEMATIC. Hate or forgive: what would you want me to choose? To hate you cuz you DESERVE me to hate you for lying or you want me to forgive you cuz you are really sorry? Sorry sorry sorry, i cant =P Not now, not yet, not this instant tat you are reading this blog. Maybe tomorrow...maybe a week, a month, a year, a life time....dont force me DONT FORCE ME DAMN IT. It spoils my perfect friday tat i dont even want to play Flyff le lah, i am not just angry. I am also disappointed and sad.....Damn you bastard, damn you stupid friend. OMG conflicting emotions again, how am i gonna sleep tonight haha. I will never tell you in the face cuz i wont have the courage to do so, why not read here haha. But i doubt u will ever notice that i got a blog, ppl tends to be lazy you noe. It's my blog and i read it myself, and it's all but the honest side of me that you see more then reality itself. I lied to someone before, he hated me SO MUCH haha and he still haven forgive me. He was a friend of my bro and yah, practical joke went too far out haha. I deserve to be hated by him so i am ok with it, forgiveness is up to him. As for now i am facing the same situation like him. I know you dont mean hurt to me but there is just this portion of my heart which states there *hate this guy FOREVER* and a part that says *forgive him please*. Haiz haiz, let me forget about this tomorrow please....dont spoil my shopping mood with Cas and Nic haha. You hor....are just making me look pathetic haha. Anyone wants to join in the vote below =P It aint gonna be a "good night" to me....


Dark and Dzark wants you OUT
Funny and Lust insist that i forgive you.
Jim, Mary and Violet is fine with whatever the result is *duh, not helping ppl*
Frion, Wendie and Karzen are just by-standing *speak up pls*

Final voting: 2 - 2 *with 6 unconfirm votes* CRAPPY COMMITTEE!!

you must solve this by yourself this time...really...

I just want a simple friendship, but sometimes the people around me just like to crash it...