Being a nobody or somebody

Well its kinda a nice friday, why not blog a bit since i have got absolutely tons of time to spend with. I have already quit my job as a waiter, reasons....plenty of me to lie openly without hesitation. I dont need to state my reason, also i wont be planning to find another job any sooner. Cuz i am lazy, picky with jobs, rejections from jobs etc. Which reason shall i pick to tell you, hmmm.... With so much time doing absolutely nothing at home, activities are rather....simple. Playing a lot with my Ar Tonelico and Flyff, progress is rather smooth but at the same time boring. Watched tons of tv and i have finally completed my Ouran High School Host club anime. A very nice anime, the ending is indeed touching while keeping the fact that Ouran is an idiot-among-idiots hilarious anime with dramatic plots haha. Time is passing by so slowly, school is only reopening in June but i have like got so much time to spend on. Maybe a little studying, searching for more jobs which i doubt i will ever get one haha. Living in my own cosmosphere has never been so.....addicting.

Everybody starts from a nobody and slowly progress to a somebody. No one is an absolute nobody, neither is anyone a somebody all the time. There are areas where you are a nobody and areas that people recognise you as a somebody. But to progress from a nobody to a somebody, it takes time, hardwork and sometimes even courage. We have a lot of nobodies around us and only a handful as somebodies. Why is there such a difference between nobodies and somebodies? Some said tat without nobodies to start with how do you get somebodies in the first place. Yet without somebodies, you wont have nobodies to make comparison to. Thus the paradox loop begins and the endless debate never end. Our world revolves around a paradox loop, cycles repeating itself time and time again. Lots of nobodies trying to be somebodies, lots of somebodies trying to command the nobodies. I am a nobody to some people, yet i am also a somebody to certain people. Why am i a nobody to you? Why am i a somebody to you? These are the questions only you can answer to me, and not you telling me to search for it myself. I can come up with conjuctures, but only you have the final say.

I always want to be a nobody, so tat i can have somebody to rely on always...