A reyvateil's wish

Brrr~~~ another bitter cold day. I just came back from my job interview and yup i am going to work haha. Just signed a 3 months contract with RecruitExpress working as a temp admin assistant aka clerk for this Borneo Motor Pte Ltd. As the name of the company implies, it deals with cars, TOYOTA to be exact haha. Yah yah all the cars, the engines etc....sad tat i aint a big fan of cars so they dont interest me at all. Dont talk about the pay, its the average admin pay haha. Work wise i am not sure, hope tat it will be interesting. Well its just a simple admin post rite, reminds me a lot of me working back in camp except tat this time the pay is MUCH higher plus no more staying in haha, and its the typical 8 to 5 from Monday to Friday routine, typical but yeah i like it haha. Along the way it was raining, raining and raining/drizzling all the way. I was like freezing all the way while walking around the place. Went over to IMM also to buy myself MORE admin/office attire. *Puke blood* i am like spending so much on attire and transport, 1st month of the pay is so gonna sore my pocket haha. Well i am really glad to be able to work and not being useless at home like wat Ben said. I am not useless k, i am enjoying the moment of life haha. I saw James in the MRT also when i was returning back from the interview. I didnt notice him boarding cuz of the fact tat i was sleeping from Buona Vista to Jurong all the way haha *cold days makes me dizzy and sleepy lol*. Well even at Jurong we were like only feets apart from each other, i didnt went over to greet him cuz he was with his friends and the MRT door was closing haha. I think he saw me too but i dont noe, he didnt look around so i guess he didnt see me also. He may be a bit slow in reaction, he may be too overly quiet, he may neglect about how others think of him and he may be tat damn right direct with his short monotone sms *lol voicing my grievances here*, but i still accept him as a friend haha, at least he is among his JC friends when i saw him so tats fine. Ok enough blabbering, i want to catch up on my remaining leisure time haha.

It is always good to be accepted by ppl in your true natural form. No shades of grey or any flaws of perfection tat you need to cover up. To be the you as you always want to be in front of everyone, tat is the perfect scenario. Yet there are numerous time in life, not every friends that you make are willing to accept the form of who you are. Some takes time to accept them, some might never accept cuz they think otherwise of you. There are times where you feel really alive and times when you feel tat you are not in reality. A bit of you here and there, a bit of cover up and masking here and there too. In the end you are neither you nor him, you are just a fictional character whom other ppl wants to see you as. Some likes to see you as Mr Prince Charming, some likes to see you as the shining brave knight. Playing so many different casts in this small world, its tiring. Though its tiring, it is also at the same time fun too. When there are times you are really really interested or try to befriend with someone, playing a different cast might be the bridge to the true form. As time goes by and you noe more about each other, the covers and masks will be slowly removed, bit by bit until the time when you are strip bare naked. That is the time when you have no dirty secrets to hide, no more ugly embarressing moments to cover. Nobody can accept a bare naked body in such a short while, they need time to accept the true facts. There are plenty of times out there, just give them time to accept you. You might be able to accept the others true form doesnt mean tat they must accept yours.

i wanna be a Reyvateil, cuz i am willing to sing a song to aid my partner and be there with him in times of need, even if i have to sing till my very last breath. Ra ki ya mi la....wee ki ya

To be yourself you got to take on numerous cast first