If only i wasnt that compulsive

Its been a while since i blog. Nothing spectacular happen this week, having been watching Ouran High School Host Club to curb my boredom at home lately. Man that anime just cracks me up, everytime! I have also start resuming my Flyff game after i realise that there isnt anything nice to play on PS2 haha, Ar Tonelico wasnt as fun as it looks, their BGM and soundtracks are nice at least haha. Most of the guildies are not playing flyff now, or at least they are afk most of the time haha so it isnt as lively as it was. I cant believe that just 2 weeks of absent from Flyff cause so much changes: first was the new Version 7 *yeah*, then the long~~~ patch, then guildies haha, its like playing Flyff all over again. Glad to see this game gaining recognition again. In love with this new song my Namie Amuro: Baby Dont Cry. Its a really nice song about her recent divorce with her ex, melodic and sweet haha with a fast pace.

Played Mahjong earlier today with Nic, Kai and Sassy Angel *a guy btw haha*. Sassy was trashing the first east round and almost everyone got a game but me. Super bad day for me haha and i thought it could get worse. The one with the worse day was Kai, and i almost felt so sorry for him. He was gang bang not once but TWICE by both Sassy and me. Gang bang as in he needs to pay for everyone for that game at the max amount : the notorious 5 TAI!!!!!. Omg he got gang bang twice~ that is really sick. Kai is really not having a good game haha, sway ah. So in the end, well you should noe by now that Kai was the biggest and ONLY loser. He lost to all 3 of us, pity eh~. Not to forget tat Nic pulled a stun of her own 5 Tai. This is like one of the most terrible round ever with so much gang bang and powerful style moves, losers definitely goes to those who anyhow wack and fail to do 5 Tai. Ke lian ah~~~ Overall i win a bit only haha.

Things haven been going smoothly at all this week. My compulsive obsessive behaviour has finally drive my best friend over the edge. Yup tats right, i have finally over done myself and he is hereby ignoring me, no matter what i say. He isnt responding to me at all...I feel so stupid for doing that and i really have myself to blame. All the whining and sobbing etc, skip it no use writing here. He isnt responding to me at all, whatever i have to say wont reach him at all. I wont be bothering him now, we all need our own space to breathe. True i see him a lot as a very good friend, but my good intention is pressuring him so much that it has become an ill-intention. Sorry isnt the word to solve the problem, more like "stay out of my life" is the proper one. Yeah, sorry for poking too much. I have better things to do then meddling with other ppl's life. Maybe if i were to take a step back, he might forgive me...someday. But the big day is coming and i goof it up, big time. Its time i start to treat him like a normal friend, not like a toy...

Sorry for being too compulsive, but it doesnt matter to you now....