Codename State, fighting for love

GONG goes the sound of cny, there goes the end of a happy chinese new year.

First day was kinda a rough day. Uncle Terrence moved over to a new condomenium and i swear tat its worse then his previous apartment. Its so small!! You sure its really call a condomenium!! Anyway met up with all the relatives, got extra angbao this year cuz cousin jess and joan got married haha. Got lots of praises from the relatives saying that i look a lot handsome then before haha, or well growing more and more handsome by the year haha. Is it! I didnt realise tat haha, oh well compare tat to my other photos when i was in JC or army i do admit tat i have change quite a fair bit about my outer appearance. But the inner me remains the same, young at heart! Playing blackjack this year is terrible, absolutely TERRIBLE! I lost a freaking 40 plus bucks in a stupid game of plus and minus, argh. I hate Uncle Terrance, he forced me to be the banker cuz i am already an "adult" but he is just a synical freak. I lost almost all my money in blackjack, really bleeding blood and tears in my heart but i put up a strong front cuz its CNY. Yah i noe its once in a year but tat doesnt mean i can be push around like a doll. I will get my revenge next year, and who cares i may not be even playing blackjack anymore cuz its just a down right lame game. I hate blackjack....tis year haha. And yah thanks again cousin daryll for making me lose a freaking 8 bucks in a single row, you were suppose to be my finance manager not my bankrupt lawyer!

Day 2 *which is today* didnt really fair tat well either. Spent a long day at my father's side of the family which i almost rot to death at the place. I am not really close with the relatives there and its like a long detention hour to me. And that place is so freaking far, its at Tampines!! All the chatting and blah blah by the other relatives delays our time going back home, argh i hate going there every year if not for the red packets haha. But i miss grandma and i still love her, i will visit you when i have the time grandma. On the way back i was bombarded by a series of phone calls by my mahjong khakis, Nic and Kai. Yes i am so so sorry haha cuz i promise them tat i can make it back by 3pm but i was late, really late by 2 hrs haha. So sorry ah. Rushed back to my house and prepare the mahjong table haha. Round 1 of mahjong begins! Me>Nic>Kai>Lip

The initial round from east to south wasnt smooth. Nic was complaining all the way cuz i was a terrible feeder, Lip hardly feed me well and i got to solo my way on luck. Kai was the only lucky fellow argh, wanna strangl him at the first few rounds for being so CHEAP haha, taking puny money at a rapid rate. I hardly win a bit haha. But after that my luck starts to roll in cuz of *i wont tell ya =P*, i was like on fire and on the roll haha. After the first round everyone was decipated, almost literally destroyed....mentally. Me and Kai were the biggers for the 1st round. After a while we change seating arrangement. Round 2 begins! Me>Nic>Lip>Kai

I swear that the seating arrangement didnt fair well enough for them haha. I was still on the roll as i sweep up a whooping ZI MO 5 TAI haha, everyone was like already critically wounded and i just launch another fatal shot. I can sense the rage of them trying to kill me and curse me deep down inside their heart. Nic was devastated mentally cuz she hardly win any rounds. I feel so sorry lah for winning my friends money but its all part of the game, nobody likes to lose. I also need to recouperate my losses at blackjack, i am also wounded argh. Subsequent rounds i just pounded, whooped, devastated and destroyed more of their income. In the end i was the biggest winner *yeah* and Kai was runner-up. Everyone was tired and i hope they are not mad at me haha. Nic is eager for a revenge haha, i will try to organise one more on sunday at most. Mahjong for tis year is a big success, i luv it!

Apart from all the mahjong and cny and blackjack etc issues, i got something to announce haha. I am no longer alone now in my life HAHA. I have my beloved deary with me all this time. Today marks the 7th day since we know each other. Whose deary you would ask, well deary is actually *yah like hell i will tell you =P*, you can go figure tat yourself haha. We have been with each other sides like glue and paper haha and i really enjoy and i am STILL enjoying the process. Everywhere, everytime, every now and ever i just dont want to miss a single time without being with you. I stil have got so much SO MUCH things to share with you which i dont even noe when to even start. It's not addiction, its beyond addiction. I might have to use a dictionary to stack the way up to heaven if i wanna use words to describe you ^^ Its not a matter of "seeking companion when you are lonely" or "searching for a soulmate to share your troubles and woes", its more then tat. A lot, a lot more.... I really like being with deary and i am sure deary does too. I have the most absolute trust for deary more then anyone i have known in this world, literally and really. I dont care if ppl found out about it in the end, i am almost at the point of giving up what i have build up for all these years just to be in part of deary's life. If you are reading this deary, FEEL MY SINCERITY! I am really honest with my every words and i risk the fact that someday my friends will find out about this issue. But i dont care, i really dont want to care about it now. Its a risk that i will gamble cuz i really cant bottle up this feeling any longer. I have been waiting for this moment to come for all these years, you cant just tell me to wait any longer again. Honey words can be sweet and deceiving, for that's what humans are known to be weak for, easily contented and easily manipulated. You can have doubts about my every intention and every motive, but you must not have doubt about my character. I mean what i say by my every words, if not then may i be thrown into hell and be burn for eternalty. You wont let me burn in hell right deary =P