Rhapsody of the Howling Wind

Rhapsody of the Howling Wind Part I

When you realise that there is a limit to certain things and that forcing yourself will only cause misery, it is best to adopt an old fashion method: wait and see like how the river flows. Let nature take its course.

Rushing on my breakfast and drinking coffee while typing this blog cuz I am going for relief teaching soon. I have been thinking a lot about a certain issue since yesterday. It is time i adopt a change in my behaviour before it goes down the slope. I lost it once and i dont want to lose it again.

Of worlds apart, no matter how much i try or how reluctant i want to feel, the distance and the barrier is always there. It's a good thing that school is reopening. Time to set my eyes on other areas to distract myself. Time to build my timetable....

To be continue....

Rhapsody of the Howling Wind Part II

It is better to have it before then never to have it at all

Yup finished my relief teaching, going down again tomorrow haha. It has been raining for the whole morning. Such a nice weather to sleep haha but i would rather forsake my sleep for more money lol. The classes are nice although some classes are pretty boring. Sort of met "my younger brother" in this class lol cuz they said that i look a lot like this kid. Yah cute lol, and i am surprised that he even lied to his classmates saying that i was his older brother. Yah rite haha.

I learnt something important today as i was browsing at some of the articles posted in the staff noticeboard. I read this article about chemistry. Nope its not the daily science chemistry that i am talking about, its about social relationship issue.

I must have been too slow to realise the fact that how some people can become perfect buddies while some people will always remain as a stranger forever. I tink know about it but i just choose not to believe in it. Well i guess it is about time i stop living in my fairytale world and start accepting facts. It isnt about the time you spend with someone or how well you know about that person, it is about the chemistry between the 2 people. It can take less then 10 seconds for you to click well with a person and almost a decade of a lifetime for you to click properly with another person. Some people, no matter how well or how long you have known them for, will always feel like a stranger to you. The chemistry just isnt there and the conversations can never go past certain issues. Like if trapped in an eternal cycle, some people are meant to be friends and some are just meant to be passer-bys only no matter how hard you try to click with them. If you try too hard the relation will get awkward.

It is just like my brother. We are so closely related by blood yet somehow he just feels like a stranger to me, no matter how hard i try we just dont click. Opposite poles maybe but we just dont have the kind of sibling chemistry. To me he is just....another person who happens to be blood related to me, thats all.

Of worlds apart, it is not the distance that counts. It is the affection and chemistry for one another that matters. It isnt measured by time or looks, it is a matter of fate and destiny. When it is time for you to know that person, you will know that person as a friend. When it is not, no matter how hard you try, things wont really work out properly. Forcing yourself will always lead to misery and sorrow. And that is how i am causing myself to be so down and emoish. I am such a big idiot...

I am a chemistry student. I should know better......

Dont cry little boy. Even when there is no one by your side, you must always believe in yourself. Someday you will find that special person whom will always stay by your side.