Duty

Duty

It's been a while since i blogged. Let me recall from the beginning.

Went out for a pre-exam outing with the gang to Kbox. Had a great time singing our hearts content but a pity we got chase out once the time is up. Might not be going to Kbox next time since Parkin and CheeKeong has got other lobang to sing at other places. I dont care how far tat place it, i just want it cheap haha. If its nice maybe i can go there by myself in the future. Took a lot of photos but i am lazy to upload them. Go view them on my facebook bah. Thanks to Kbox, i am also obsessed with Leann Rimes's music. Her songs are great.

Vixson came over to my house on saturday night, real late night lol. He came by to watch this freaky horror/thriller movie. Good way to kill the night though. Perdenver came the next day and i revised with them about chemical equations. Yah good old memories. I use to remember those formulas when i was at their age and here i am studying chemistry. Kinda surprise to see myself taking this subject when i have absolutely no idea about what my favourite subject was in the past. Now i know. Took me a while to explain the concept of ionic equation to them. The worst thing would be balancing equation. Balancing is easy, balancing it CORRECTLY is a different thing. It's kinda hard to do it if you dont even noe how to come up with the chemical name for the species. Went to play dota on Clairisa after that. Didnt realise that Perdenver's phone was ringing and i got a missed call from Jonas. Turned out that Perdenver's mother was looking for him and she was quite worried. I was kinda surprise when i noe tat it was her calling, i assume that Jonas was calling me becuz of that issue also. In the end everything turned out fine, i didnt kidnap her son haha. Ok joking. I feel flattered to receive those compliments,

After that went through a bit of chemical equation concept with Kailin via microphone chat on MSN. I just on my mic and she just listen, so its kinda like a monotone conversation between me and Clairisa haha. Ok lah at least i cleared some of her doubts. You know, i really wish that i can teach chemistry if i were to be able to go back and do relief teaching. I want to do something special this time when i go back and not just idle around "watching the students doing their own stuff by the desk." I dont noe maybe i tink too much, i just wish to do more. Then again i need to do reality check. I need to get a stable job this year, it's crucial. Gonna spam resumes and calling around the clock like mad after my Inorganic exam is over. Yah i noe i still got Physical, but tats like a few more days for me to prepare haha. I will officially switch on my "holiday mood" in advance after my inorganic exam haha.

Wee wee, Youmei, Parkin and Zhenjian came over to my house to study today. Went through and did some questions on the textbook on the chapters for chemical equilibrium and statistics. Tricky though, i still cant solve one of the question and i am quite piss with myself haha. The test paper was tricky also. Answers provided by CSS was inaccurate too. I guess we can only pray for the best on our Analytical chem exam. We studied hard, its up to fate to decide on the outcome. They are coming again on wednesday to wrap up on the remaining chapters. Let us kill Analytical chemistry together, haha.

Some things arent meant to be. And when it happens, they usually occurs in a split second. It's better to have than never to have at all. I want it to happen again so badly. I just want it, i just want it i dont care. I can cry and throw my tantrum around but i dont care. I dont really want to care when people dont care about how i feel. Why should i care so much. I know it is just too good to be true, way too good. How can i not wake up everyday without thinking about someone flashing over my mind. It's very much like a care without tender, a love for the heartless and a soul for the dead. Everything doesnt make sense to me at all, neither does it to you.

Nonetheless, life goes on. Final chapter in my NUS life. Till the end of time, may the memories bring me through this ordeal. You know, it is the little happiness happening around that gets me going on this long journey. Many little steps, holding hands one at a time, breaking and reuniting. Here is my last song for this chapter.

For you, thanks for staying by my side at the correct time

There was a night when the clock strikes twelve.

A secret revealed, it kills to tell.

Silence at night

How he wish to share this secret with you by the side.

He hides through a corner by the door.
He gazes into the sky, watching star falls.
Brilliant and bright
How he wish the stars could shine throughout the night.

And it was gone by the end of dusk.

A new dawn greets with a smiling mask.

You were nowhere near at sight

How he wish you could hear this, first by the side