A known too late

A known too late

My mood is kinda in a twirl now. Let's see if blogging helps.

Poor Perdenver, he was suppose to study at my house during the weekend but ended up sleeping most of the time cuz of his fever. In the end he seems to have jeapordized his Amath test, poor boy. Glad to see that he is feeling a lot better now, i can put my mind at ease. Get well soon ok Perdenver. Didnt get a chance to ask the others about their Amath test. I assume they did better than before since this is a re-test. The last time i nursed someone was my brother who was rolling on the bed in pain. It takes a lot of concentration, patience and care to nurse a sick person.

I just wish someone would care for me as much as i would to care for someone. Just a thought.

Analytical test was a disaster today even though marks werent counted. I cant believe how much i goof up on the questions. I feel so stupid and sadden by my result. I blame myself for not putting in enough effort to prepare for that test since i took it for granted as a mock test. Of course now that i learn how things are going to be like during the test, i can be well prepared for it. However, the cost of doing so is to stab my pride with a knife. I studied and still failed the test, ironic.

Disappointed, but not as much as making a fool in front of you. I just want you to see the better of me.

Didnt realise that Shin Yee would be that kind of a humourous girl haha. We sort of had a nice time crapping after Dr Ship's lecture. She likes to hang out with Chee Keong and Yin Ngai during the Inorganic lecture even though we have our own group of cliques. I know her but i am not as close to her compare to Yin Ngai they all. How dare they put me in such an awkward spot infront of a lady, totally humiliated haha. Oh well, i just bruised Chee Keong with my nails and scarred his left arm haha, evil me. I know they are just joking about me, i know...i know. I used to enjoy being the center of the joke. It just comes natural to me but that doesnt mean that people must always assume that i should be under the spotlight when it comes to being ridiculed. If only everybody loves a joker, i will contented to be one.

Be your joker, i only wish to get your attention among the sea of crowd.

I dont really want the school term to end. Not that i miss the lab reports or school work lol, i just miss the feeling of being together with my friends. Smiling at each other, crapping and doing school work together. Ah, how i wish this could end in a better way.

And i just smile like an idiot today because i was really glad to see you. Yah you smiled back too, i feel really happy. At least you know me now, even if it is a little too late.

I know it is never too late to change

I only know that it's a little late to realise

When saying "Hi" is like saying "Bye"

I wish to say more, only to realise that time is up

How reluctant it is to say goodbye.